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Just after i post my entry below.
Mr low, send me another sms.
I cried.
Plus listening to JJ's Caocao, i'm really determined to work hard.

Thats after this common test.

Cuz i knew i had no time to mug other subjects le. Its too late.
I will still however study for the remaining paper.

Though it may be a bit disappointing... But mr low still believes in u that u can do well . . . He will try every means to help u.. u must do ur part... he won't easily give up on u becos u r his student who has the potential to do well... He believes in u!

Thank you so much:)
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I can't believe i'm blogging right now when i have practically fail my
umm..

MATHS?

Ok, i admit i didn't study at all during the march holidays.

So based on this statement, one can truly say i deserve it.

Its nt so much abt the process about how i failed or anything. Its more about the consequences.
See? I disappointed my subject tutor. I felt morally wrong. I had to drop 1 subject. 1 innocent subject like econs? Cuz i can't possibly drop maths? Such fateful consequences, i'm ashamed of myself.

Let's look at Mr Low reply when i ask him to mark leniently for my paper.
---> :-(

Lets look at his next reply when i tell him i will cheer him up by treating him a mudpie.
---> If mudpies can solve the problem... Then i buy u 100 of them to make u pass but thats not possible.

Any literature ppl reader can sense his disappointment.

Yushu, wake up pls.
Stop drowning on in ur own world, ur nt the sole person existing in this world.

Next raymond replied "u got time to study oso din study"
whaha i guess i really deserve to be killed.

Sometimes i really felt so hopeless in myself, why can't i just sit down to study for a test?
Isit i'm too busy, or am i juz nonchalent to the things ard me?

Talking about fate, while i was on the way home just nw, the mother of house 57 stopped me. I'm 67 btw. She began asking me some questions like how to study for maths in primary school n how i can do so well to get into tchs etc..

Maths . . . when i have just failed it.

But i did tell her that i used to take abacus lesson so it made me think fast.
We communicated for very long. in Angmoh, i'm proud of myself.
Really din expect me to be able to talk so freely to her when i have just failed my common test.
Throughout the conversation, i was constantly reminded of my own achievement during psch n sec sch days. But look at now in JC, i'm an ultimate goner, so much for past glory.
Reality still counts.
I have nothing but a barren peice of land infront of me right nw.
I can still make crops grow if i put in hard work.
But if i don't it will stay barren forever.

Is that truly what i want?

I really dun understand myself nwadays. She was saying her daughter lack motivation to study.
And she wanted me to teach her maths. Good offer but i declined.
I really dun want her daughter to go astray like me. For her own good, i prefer to introduce her my maths tutor.
The problems facing her daughter right nw is what i am facing currently.
I'm just too embarrassed to bring it out to her.
Afterall, i'm being saluted on her courteousy. (thats 4 past achievement)
So what if i come from tchs n njc, so what if i'm once clever, results have shown that if i don't work hard, i will nvr get gd results.
I'm not like those ppl that can score despite nt doing homework.

The conclusion still holds: i'm definitely need to study.

Do you all feel as sad as me?
Pray 4 me then.
Bye econs.
its no use crying over spilt milk.
get over it yushu.
get cracking.

so much 4 playing. . .

I`VE MARKED IT:D
6:39 PM