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Today is a blog worthy day.
Going to dedicate this entry to the supporters and my teammates.
Yes, we lost, but it was an impt lesson to us.
I really did very badly. Today's performance and yesterday performance totally are split difference. I'm really sorry. Especially to people supporting us. I just smsed them and say i'm sorry. Zhijun asked me to cheer up, she said it was just a game. But i'm not disappointed over the fact that we can't even win inter-nj tournament. But the fact is that i'm disappointed with myself. There are alot of reasons why i still cannot really get over it despite it was just a game.
First of all, i spent my time playing dota and i flopped my Promos + CT1 this year. You see, i didn't really get upset over the failure in my academics. but i'm more concern that i lost this match. Really felt sad that i can't even achieve a thing in both areas. Gave up my studies to play. and we lost today. so its like come back empty-handed. so why in the hell of a sane mind do i want to start learning dota? i must be crazy or what. Maybe my teachers n parents have been right. Sometimes in games, you can nvr find ur true identity.
Secondly, i know zhongxian wanted very much to win sth at least maybe 2nd place even if we lost to REVO. but today its like we can't even qualify for semis, nt to say be 2nd placing. Sometimes its those feelings that you have disappointed a friend who placed his trust in you. I'm really sorry.
Thirdly, for the supporters part, i dragged yuliang along to watch us play. He has been nice to watch us play despite that he needs to go home urgently. I think he would be scolded when he reached home. I'm really sorry. We lost and u kena scolded. I regret asking you along. Sorry. All these days jokingly, i have called you noob. Today the match i think i'm the biggest nub of all. Thanks for watching till the end of play. I promised i will treat you to lunch or drink or sth.
Just now i solo walk back from cDanS to home.. qt nice.. cuz i think alot during the walk. sms alot too. Sometimes i realise you need the time to urself n reflect on ur actions. And i analyse where we have went wrong.
Our team heroes: Sand King, Earthshaker, Vengeful Spirit, Venomancer, Medusa.
Opponent heroes: Lich, Queen Of Pain, Rougeknight, Silencer*, Dwarven sniper.
Actually, by right its alr clear-cut that we will lose.
We drafted wrongly.
Summore my SK was drafted first. This means emphasis in my hero to play well but i didn't! Now you guys understand why i feel so disappointed with myself le ba. We lost to our own strat yesterday. We should have drafted silencer 1st. but we didn't. In the end 1 of the reason why i am the last in the scores was that i died the most. Maybe due to silencer. And i can't even farmed a bkb la.. it was like so disappointing.
silencer. silencer. silencer.. zzz
1 more thing is that i also disappointed hanyang. He is in the team too but he didn't get the chance to play cuz he has table tennis trainings. Summore, he helped to pay for melvin's share.
So he wasted 10bucks for nth. I duno how i'm going to talk to him tml during GP. maybe he will say me. but its alright. I will just say sorry ba. Still remember this morn when i went school he asked me that no matter what must win cuz he wants to play too. But now, its gameover. I duno how he's going to take it. Sorry hanyang.
To add on to my pain, i'm sick.:(
But that doesn't give me an excuse nt to play well.
I really really hope that i won't have to go through such painful experience again.
The legend of Team Random: Melvin, Yuyan, Zhongxian, Daniel n me.
Ok thats it, i quit dota le.
Time to focuz on more realistic stuff like fitness and academics.
Yuyan said there might be a chance that team bleach( wtf did they call themselves that!!!) may be disqualified cuz they backdoor. But i don't think so la. Now i hope zen wea's team can win.
Ok, dota comp is OVER. i shall not talk about it. And i'm sensitive over the word *silence* now...
Today maths lesson, Mr low asked us to set targets for ourselves.
So i put: "term1 CT -F9 , term2 CT - E, Prelims - C, Alevel - A"
he said i undersetimated myself lor. I dun understand why he has so much trust in me.
I told him i now scord F9, so must slowly takes a slow step towards alevels mah, so nx common test should be E lor. He said i can get much higher. I'm just confused that why is he putting so much faith in me.
So for now its just plain study.
i dun wana think about anymore thing.
Not even windwalk. heh.
Btw, soccer guys won IJ 2-0 today.:) So happy for them la. 1st match when i went to JJ to support, they lsot 1-0 to JJC. But they now consecutively won CJ n IJ 2-0 apart. I hope raymond won't be disheartened cuz he nvr get to play.
I`VE MARKED IT:D
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