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This time round i've made another mistake in office. Thats for being too calculative. In gist, i was just trying to claim back hours for the past 1mth of the deployment that burnt my countless weekends. Basically what i did was to send a email to my boss and i was scolded today for being so calculative. She thought my calculations was wrong. She thought i "ate" her. But never did she know that her maths was so lousy and that in a system of work morn, nite n off, the hours will be 0. since 3 working days is 8 x 3 = 24 and 2 days of shifts are 12 x 2 = 24 and i have wrote there + 4 + 4 - 8 respectively and it was 0(i wrote it there ok). It was only weekends thats why got so many hours. This shows that my weekends have been burnt alot of times. And basically why i have accumulated so many hours is that the shift system for the 1st few days is work DAILY and there are no OFF, so i can get to accumulate that kind of hours. Then she come saying "what if mr c n mr y come asking me for hours too?" she din realise they just join the deployment not so long ago and the roster then was alr "morn night off office". That kind of system will nvr accumulate any hours de laa. u tink its like mine? "morn morn morn and so on..." MY leave has been frozen for the past 1 mth and i was nvr allowed to take leave. I was told we have something called alternate days off. But the new roster has been up, so this thing doesn;t work anymore. She didn't realise every OFFICE days i have been reporting, but the others have alr taken leave. Funny right? the 1 that had worked for so long is not being sympathised. And the 1 who is going to ORD can be granted off. Oh well, this thing is so pissing and unfair la.

SO i know i had made the wrong move by being calculative but i was forced into it. I had my own reasons. They never bother to think for me. ITs because from my batch onwards, i was nt allowed to carry forward my leave thats why by this year i have to clear my 14 days. I had intentions to "ORD" earlier so that i can go find a job if nt i tink i will seriously need financial aid soon. But people just think why u wna so many leave 4 wat, i told them i was forced into it. I m the last batch to ORD among all my JC frens cuz i was unfit squad so need 2 years, thats y im trying means n ways to save up my leave. SO because of that, i've tried requesting for hours off. In the end i was disappointed (kind of expected anw) to hear that i have been calculative. Hello so my weekends have been burnt for NTH. Oh wait, i must say mayb they just want me to noe that its for SPF. oh well, so all these unclaimed hours must dedicate to the lovely force i'm serving. why must they make me hate MSK so much that my own personal life is ruined and yet i cannot claim any bloody leave right now? argh!!!

People just simply nvr think. i think i just have to submit to fate. so now i have to return to office being defeated & embarrassed. oh well i swear from this moment onwards, i'm not going to join in to anymore outings. totally no face seems my face bears the word 'calculative'. Small money i have never wanted back. but hours wise, thats impossible. its my life. my sleep. my deserved off. but hell no, i'm getting blacklisted for this incident. I don't care anymore. i'm not going to work so hard anymore. What piss me off is that other people in other divisions are also claiming thier off yet she thinks i'm the only 1 doing that. blehz. i wish i'm studying privately now, these type of ppl get protected and emphatised that they have exams and i swear my boss was super protective of him. What help to rotate? its just another way of saying "dun touch him". really super unfair. life is never fair. u tink police welfare alot oso? they CHOOSE people they like. those fuckers like me i get to work like slave.

I have to start wearing a mask now. A mask of hopelessness and facade. To embed my agonies from the world.

I must try not to be so calculative. But there are things u have to take back. and i mean by hook or by crook.

If you have a generous heart, remember never to be calculative. your boss dun like it. its just where exploitation begins.

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