internet has been craZy nowadays. it just keep dc-ing and my sis refuse to call up the technician to fix it. her problem has been worse, she cant sign in for nuts. so the only bad point i can recall is that i cant dota anymore. time to go into isolation, its time for a change.
certainly there are incidents which i live to regret, but sometimes miscommunications is a common platform in life. angry people are people that think for you. so i shan't think about it anymore. i'm just too tired to apologise anymore because it seems i do not change for the better. whatever it is, i'm going to set goals to compensate my idleness thus far. ohh, i received nus FASS letter already, haha and why isit my NTU letter still have not come yet? :(
so now i have told myself i shall not go out anymore. i shall de-activate myself and stay home to fulfill my goals. i know my birthday coming and i still want to meet several people but then birthday is just another day. its not a bigdeal. to protect myself from several ills like excessive gambling. yea nothing is going to tempt me anymore. EPL season ending le, so i'm not going to sign up for the euro soccer thingy. no more betting, using 3 mths to be rid of soccer bettings. so at least when the new season of epl starts, i will not have post-symptons..lol.
i have decided: date of isolation is from 16th june to 16th december 08. During this 6mth period, i will not go out to meet any frends or wat. there are alot of things to accomplish in this period. i shall be kept free frm the world and external activities. pls do not msg me to jio me out because i am giving myself a time to change. sometimes in life, only determinations will persevere in the long race to success and i want to be part of it. there will be no entertainment for me except in house comfort, otherwise it will be truly training.
During this 6mth period i shall name 6 things i want to do badly to upgrade myself.
- my physical enhancement. i have always wanted to have a 6 pack body and truth is the lump in my belly is getting bigger with this current routine i am undergoing. and i still have to train for my IPPT which is coming soon. i miss swimming too.
- my IT skills. truth is i love the wonders of excel and i want to master the powers of the software. but before that i have to go CHALLENGER shop to buy my microsoft office software. and then at leASt with this basic knowledge, i can find admin job with ease during vacations so that i can earn more money. also, i pretty love adobe photoshop too.
- my culinary skills. i have always hated the kitchen except the time when i can find food to eat. i will take some time to go learn from my aunty how to cook basic stuff. for the deserts and other stuff, will need some time to sign up with ONEpa at some nearby CC for courses.
- my econs. assume that i am selected by NTU, i will go bookstores to find some econs textbooks for some casual reading to improve my background on econs. i will also ask my dad to hire some jc school teacher so that everyweek he can come help me revise my econs for this 6mths.
- my passion for reading. i realise i have super poor communication skills with gals. need to borrow or buy some books on tips as to improve my character as well as to know the dos and donts. i really really hope i can improve my own personal traits so that i can be a better person.
- Last but not least, i will minimise my expenses this 6mths. Savings will be maximal and i hope i can achieve my target pretty soon. Seriously money is really powerful. It can change some1's life and it can triggers two parties' tensions. You'll try not to talk about money with friends, but truth is you know money is the solution. So from here i must be independant. I must thank god for giving me a well-to-do family since i'm still receiving pocket money. all the different bills are just too crazy to bear.
I choose that period is because its 2 weeks after my birthday and perhaps all the hoo-haas had died down. and bascially because i really have some more frens to meet. people like michelle who is super busy in SMU, my 2 besties (i still owe ki present) and of cuz the date is after zj birthday. MArcus is coming back on the 9th may. and kel has just left for taiwan. he will be back last week of may. when the date of isolation ends, it means xmas is near. of cuz alot of frens would have ORD-ed but i don't care. i hope by then there will be a class chalet:) then it will be time to meet the fresh yushu.
ok i promise i can still be contacted by sms. so if need to discuss the taiwan trip, pls feel free to sms me. no worries, this new resolution is just to show whether i can do it or not. and of cuz the goals are to be achieved. i love you people. take care alright