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Its been nearly 2 weeks since the start of the self-discovery plan.
Been doing quite well except maybe disciplinary still fails to make an impact. I did not spend my evening time (on weekdays) effectively. Had contemplated to read more story books and do more english assessment books. But theres a monster in me that asks me to call it a day on the bed. Some type of dark evil creature that grabbed you tightly in the legs and held you back to fulfill what you have to do.
On a more positive note, i'm working hard on my fitness area. Went swimming and running interchangeably on a regular basis. I managed to complete my run today from my house to westmall and back via the route of Bt Gombak Xiao Guilin without stopping even once. But the pace my of running is still considered slow maybe thats why my weight refuses to drop. Holy cow, i'm 68.9kg now. just 3 years back im actually weighed 55kg. But now my bmi is in the acceptable range. There's this lump of belly fat in me thats refusing to go away. With this protective layer of coverage, i can't get my 6 packs!ARGH! I WANT A HOT BODY! something that men health had always captured in the cover page. haha my line of thinking is abit screwed because i believe only a nice body can make the expensive clothes you wore a blast!
I'm going to have my econs tuition later. the teacher is actually from sajc. haha and i vividly remembered his name. so its time to mug hard. haven been online for quite sometime because been feeling extremely lethargic over the days due to streneous gymwork as well as some conditioning running. talking about mugging, you can see the muggish spects i'm wearing currently. every1 called this outlook a nerd outlook. so whats wrong with being a nerd. a nerd can earn millions, can a punk or a clubber do? or should i say the abilty to save money.
This is the second weekend i'm spending time alone. But its sort of unusual because former time was spent on computer games while the time now is actually spent on learning the proper way to apply to life to be a better person. Well, you can see that i'm keep emphasising that i want to be a cleaner and sharper person, not literally i mean, but metaphorically. Its actually my target, my ambition. But these would not have worked if i do not have the insights to doing it the right way. Patience is a virtue that i need to employ to succeed and thats way past me since the usual self was a person who cannot afford to waste time lazing around or spend the antagonizing time waiting for people. would have grudges and millions of rantings to splash about. somehow i just got a crazy feeling 6mths is not ample to fulfill so many wants. i'm telling you i'm still a normal person and im starting to miss watching action-packed movies like "wanted" and "zorhan" that are currently on screen right now in the market.
i have began to accept facts, some elements of cruelty and prejudice that i am not willing to heed in the past. alot of things we cannot change. because we were not certain of the correct protocol in getting to where we yearn and also chances are destiny is not within our control. but the only thing we can change is ourselves and other people. its takes a million to attempt to change the environment but it only takes a person (me), to make this evident difference. i want to achive my goals and i will help others along in the road whenever i can. because i read that "you can achieve your own goals if you can also aid people you meet along the way to achieve their goals". i did not lie to you. i take this statement like how the christians take the type of belief/confidence they want in the bible. Humans beings can never survive alone. but their capabilty of working as a team is their greater strength. the only problem you face is whether the type of people you meet/trust in are people who can steer you to the right direction in life.
july is coming. and july i will have alot of cooking lessons. time will fly fast. august is ndp period. september is f1 period. and when october comes, i will be taking up more courses. have been thinking on some dance and taekwando and badminton courses.
and finally i can crack a damn egg in ease. something i have fear for over the 20years. i want to counter my fears and turn them into opportunities.
adieos people.
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