Because Of You...

cny

2010-02-11T01:30:00.002+08:00

cny is coming. but not of any excitement to me. more of how to mug effectively during recess week.

lols, an ugly duckling is bornt :)
ppl are blind, but they will realise soon. i will just wait and laugh :D

pray

2009-12-10T11:38:00.002+08:00

rem on sunday before i went back hall, i prayed and on monday, it was over.

so im flying off to thailand in another 3hrs time or so. and i pray again. would another tradegy occurs? i really dun noe. sigh. hope i make it back safe n secure ba.

for you..

2009-12-07T21:31:00.002+08:00

prob the last walk tgt.. like a farewell bid.

alot of questions i had in mind to question your stubborness. but got to respect ur decision.

oh well, 1 day if u look back, you will uds what i have said.

life goes on. thanks 4 everything tho.

:)

杨丞琳 - 左边

总是　忍不住寂寞掉下眼泪　你才会给安慰
担心　短暂的晴天　随时都可能被阴霾收回
等待　有机会最坏也最甜美　我乐观却疲惫
因为太怕失去你　所以连快乐里都装满伤悲

你不曾发觉　你总是用右手牵着我　但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远　永远隔着亲切　爱少得可怜
伸出右手　想陪着你向前走　感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我　相信你会了解 (你一定看得见)
总在　埋怨过你的冷漠之后　又急着说抱歉
彷佛　向疏远的你乞求一点体贴　都是我不对

结果　有可能最美也最可悲　我做好了准备
也许　太自由的你　心里面那个家　谁也不能回

我一直相信　总有一天　你会用左手牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远却会实现　心在同一边就能够听见　你说的那句　我爱你

makes me wonder

2009-12-06T11:48:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really wonder if i really expect too much from you.

or you're just being too selfish.

no wonder things always turn up the same way. no1 even is talking.

when will you learn to make sacrifices?

Thanks kokweng for sending me to FS with ur bike. 1st time in my life i sit on a bike.damn fun la.. hahas!

bitch!

2009-12-03T04:09:00.001+08:00

hahas you sure do make a good bitch!

and thats an insult to say im like mr s n mr j. stop ur childishness antics pls.

LOLS! joke of the year.

regret

2009-11-16T03:47:00.000+08:00

the worst decision i made is to bring u in to sheares hall.

thats how i feel right now. no right nor wrong.

blessed

2009-10-02T18:51:00.002+08:00

when things go wrong and you think that you're fighting the struggle alone..

i only know that i have 2 reliable frens i can depend on.

Thank You.

You 2 are really the best.

fucking biased

2009-10-01T22:16:00.003+08:00

you are just one of the fucking biased piece of shit i've ever seen.

to me: oh need to study. TTYL.

to the other side: reply till so freaking fast n happy.

LOLS

thats just you, isnt it.

ok im done with you.

bye.

can u uds?

2009-09-30T14:35:00.002+08:00

hesitation makes us drift apart.

contemplation makes us be more awkward.

anticipation makes us recognise our fears and flaws.

If you still do not understand, i'm doing all for you.
And maybe one day when you finally do understand, i will be thankful.
But i know it will not happen.
Because you will never understand.
SIGH.

evergreen

2009-09-27T02:23:00.002+08:00

My fav band - westlife
one of the songs that i find it super beautiful and meaningful.
this is for you.

Eyes
Like a sunrise
Like a rainfall
Down my soul
And I wonder
I wonder why you look at me like that
What you're thinking
What's behind
Don't tell me
But it feels like love

I'm gonna take this moment
And make it last forever
I'm gonna give my heart away
And pray we'll stay together
Cause you're the one good reason
You're the only girl that I need
Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen
I'm gonna take this night
And make it Evergreen

Touch
Like a angel
Like velvet to my skin
And I wonder
Wonder why you wanna stay the night
What you're dreaming
What's behind
Don't tell me
But it feels like love

I'm gonna take this moment
And make it last forever
I'm gonna give my heart away
And pray we'll stay together
Cause you're the one good reason
You're the only girl that I need
Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen
I'm gonna take this night
And make it Evergreen

(Don't tell me
But it feels like love)

I'm gonna take this moment
And make it last forever
I'm gonna give my heart away
And pray we'll stay together
Cause you're the one good reason
You're the only girl that I need
Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen
I'm gonna take this night
And make it Evergreen

ttyl

2009-09-25T20:10:00.001+08:00

TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL
TTYL

All you know is to say ttyl. but you never did. BULLSHIT.

heartless

2009-09-24T13:50:00.001+08:00

why do i keep loving kris allen's version of heartless as days go by?

In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
oh, how could you be so heartless?

How could you be so
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talking to me tho'
You need to watch the way you talking to me no
I mean after all the things that we been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo I know some things that you ain't told me
And yo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna give me back
And You gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't me
You got a new friend
Well I got homeys
But at the end it's still so lonely

In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
oh, how could you be so heartless?

How could you be so Dr. Evil
You're bringing out a side of
Me that I don't know,
I decided we weren't gonna speak so why are up 3 a.m. on the phone,
Why does she be so mad at me for, homey I don't know she's hot and cold,
I won't stop; I won't mess my groove up
cause I already know how this thing goes,

You run and tell you're friends that you're leavin' me,
They say that they don't see what you see in me,
You wait a couple months then you gone' see,
You'll never find nobody better than me

Coz' In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
oh, how could you be so heartless?

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby lets just knock it off
They don't know what we've been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night...

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far and far and far, he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless...
oh, How could you be so heartless?
oh, how could you be so heartless? oh..

Coz' In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless..

timeless time

2009-09-23T21:59:00.002+08:00

if time can change everything,
if time can turn back the wrong decision
if time can make both of us happier

youcanhaveallthetimeyouneed.

talking about time, i still do not understand NM's concept of timeless time.

all or nothing

2009-09-22T14:13:00.001+08:00

thanks horace for the song :)

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eye
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older older
You know I'd fight for you
But how I can fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I dont care if that's not fair

Chorus:
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart
But I dont show it show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know know it

Don't me make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell

Chorus

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
It's now or never

angry man

2009-09-21T20:06:00.001+08:00

they say an angry man is a hungry man.

indeed!

i just ate 1 plate of duck rice and 1 plate of fried kway teow for dinne.

LOLS, wonder since when my appetite was so enormous.

I'm back

2009-09-20T22:03:00.002+08:00

After like months of absence, im finally back.

I think i made a brave decision, but at the same time it was a stupid one. Although i wanted a positive outcome, there isnt much i could do to change your mind.

So.. i've decided.

To give up.

And to forget.

*slaps myself repeatedly* i'm really a silly chap.

genting

2009-02-19T03:55:00.002+08:00

haha genting trip was fun.

but it can be better if i weren't feeling awkward in n out. isis will know what i meant.

still, i wld love to revisit the casino again once i officially reach 21st.

need not be stunned by the guard that say "so you are bornt in Jan right?"

CNY

2009-01-26T11:04:00.001+08:00

1st day of CNY.. but doesn't feel like CNY at all..

i think CNY has lost its purpose in my heart.. not to say collect angbaos..

numb

not a champ!

2008-12-22T12:09:00.000+08:00

Honestly, I do not think Liverpool will win EPL this season, though i'm an ardent fan of her, but simply because they lack the will and determination to finish off 10-men Arsenal. I have to admit that the sending off of Adebayor was harsh and the fate of Arsenal should be sealed by the fact that Fabregas limped off in injury after a tackle by fellow countryman, Alonso just before the end of the first half. But its unbelievable that Liverpool was unable to take advantage of Arsenal's plight. Totally a let-down. Why bother playing with sympathy when you know you have to win the game to be EPL champ?

And when Mr Ade was sent off, Sammuel Lee should have sent on the 2nd striker asap. But he subbed in Babel and El Zhar, both wingers that i do not really fancy that much, and made a mess out of this golden opportunity. Robbie Keane became a hero for his equaliser I can only pray that Everton can hold Chelsea today..

Who i think should go in the January's Transfer Window..

1 Pennant (i prefer Kuyt who is more hardworking)
2 Leiva (i really don't like this guy who is vison-less)
3 Dossena (the guy that leads to the 2 goals scored by Hull)
4 Babel (people asking to give him a chance. judging by his display, i think there isn't a need)

Who i think should stay.. despite rumours..

1 Alonso (some1 who can hold the midfield well)
2 Keane (he needs more time to prove himself)
3 Benayoun (i like his control of ball as well as creativity)

who i think is a promising youngster..

1 Insua (i watch him play ytd, and oh mann, this kid has potential)

who i think should not be substitute..

1 El Zhar (he can't control ball, and he can't pass)
2 David Ngog (he is not a good sub for Keane)

and Finally, who i think Liverpool should sign..

1 Owen ( A better Finisher )
2 Lennon ( A speedy winger that can do magic..)
3 A better left-back
4 A better Gerrard-Sub when the former is out injured)

If all these can be rectified, Liverpool will definitely be champ.

self-revealation

2008-12-21T01:26:00.002+08:00

ok kind of realise that simply nth has changed since 6 mths back. you know, excuse of being sick is not a reason to compensate my inferior self. but today's meet up has been positive, as in i treat all as lessons learnt. though in my heart, i know myself truly i have been disappointing. but i guess every setbacks is going to be my engine for self-improvement.

hearing so many things about hers truly sunk right into me. because i know i have been in that situation before, playing the role of a loser and someone who is simply put, immatured.

but i know that i will be more prepared the next time we meet again. i promise.

end of isolation

2008-12-16T16:36:00.000+08:00

Today is 16Th December 08. It signals the end of my isolation period. Everyone said 6 months is a very long period. But the days are passing like the twinkling of an eye. So fast that i feel maybe i need another 6 months more. But i won't be that silly again, no worries. The daily work, exercise and adrenaline rush are what that kept me busy. And you know times flies while your not able to keep track of the time. I won't be doing the review today because i am celebrating my prison break with a flu. And strange enough the last time i saw a doctor was when i had rashes from excessive alcohol-intake due to clubbing.

I'm going to say that i did not change much during this transition. Perhaps the most satisfying thought that i've learnt to cherish is that friends are very important in our lives. And that i really appreciate the people around me that helped me in a way or other.

Anyhow, i just went to see a doctor at the walk-in clinic @ TTSH. Strange thing does happen you know. I don't really get the whole idea why the female doctor can prescribe me a medicine that i am instructed to take only in the morning. Mind you, i visited the clinic @ 230pm and if you aren't able to tell the time, its in the afternoon. And i am having trouble controlling the fluid from flowing out of my nose. And here comes my magical pill that is supposed to solve my problem but instead worsen it... I don't know how professed is the doctors nowadays, but certainly they need more practices and examinations to ensure that they are of high standards/calibre please.

So while i'm still stuck in office squeezing my sore nose dry, i've decided to keep my blog active. And i would like to say that I'm hooked to shopping even at this point of time when people were financially deprived-rid of. My mum was right to scold me for being insensible as the reason i can only give myself is that i need to start to dress smartly to prepare for working life and then university.

Am going to be busy this week with all the meetups ~

Thurs - Shweta,Joyce,Xt,Khris,Yuliang
Fri - await confirmation
Sat - Mich
Sun - Jas

Alright will blog more when i have the time.

dishonest store @ queensway...

2008-11-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to Queensway shopping centre alone to buy a pair of superstars. i mean Adidas shoes.. not a pair of hot models... have always been a fan of Adidas superstar.. been wearing it since the start of secondary school.. so you can imagine how many pairs have i changed throughout these years... hmm, 3 pairs to be exact. so yesterday's purchase was my 4th pair. was quite impressed with myself that i can actually wear my 3rd pair for almost 4 years... i rem i bought my 3rd pair in J1.. before one of the science practical remedial... was quite unwilling to change it initially because this was the pair that let me pass my driving test on my 1st try... but then the soles and front of the shoes have cracked, and you know during rainy weathers, water will seep into my shoes.. so i told myself its time to have a change.

Sidetrack from the main topic a while, i just threw my Nike air force shoes away. Was feeling quite guilty about it.. because i think i did not wear it for very long.. it was left rotting in the shoes' cupboard for quite sometime, till the entire patch of white had turned yellow, with cobwebs dangling in the foothold. at that time when i first bought the pair, it was considered limited edition. and you know i often like to wear superstar and Nike shoes interchangeably whenever i went out. but then it start to creep into me that i wasn't really a fan of Nike. perhaps i don't really like the massive exterior it presents to people. and because my feet isn't that big, so on a matching basis with jeans, Adidas will be a better solution. i still have a pair of Nike shoes though, quite new, bought at the start of this year.. more presentable i felt.. and i also bought a pair of new balance running shoes during October because i am a occasional runner.. so now i have 3 shoes to wear... was pondering for a fourth.. which is moccasin/loafers... saw a pair of it at queensway, was quite attracted to it, Clarks brand.. $189.. the shopkeeper told me at most discount till $160.. so i told her i will come back again. can see she was relatively annoyed because i asked her so many questions.. like how to wear and how to match.. but i'm glad i learnt something about fashion sense, having moved into the big 2...

ok back to main topic, i bought my pair of Superstar for $85. i considered it to be a good buy although the generation i bought was like years ago.. so no wonder there was a 40% discount tagged to it.. wanted to try something refreshing. so i bought a pair of USA superstar. and yes the colour is dark blue, red and white, because its USA. there is lesser patch of white now and i believe the shoes will not be dirtied that fast... the main reason why i blog about this was because not that i want to inform everyone i changed my shoes, rather i want to advise people the correct measure to take while buying shoes. I bought mine at this shop called "Sports and more.." its at the 1st floor. At the beginning, i asked a malay shop assistant if there was a new pair of the shoes, he told me that was the last pair.. i was quite reluctant to buy it because one, the size is 1 smaller and two, the half of the shoes had been on shelves since "duno-how-long". so i asked another china co-worker for assistance. The problem was that the chinese took so long just to find my shoes,(i was getting impatient) but he managed to get me a new pair. Irony isn't it.. That makes me even more despise malays... lazy and unprofessional in their work attitude. ok so guys remember to always counter check with different shop assistants because some of them will deploy such despicable antics on you just to convince you to buy.

Ok, anyone has suggestions in buying affordable and comfortable pair of mocassin/loafers? Do let me know ok...

Police Cars

2008-11-14T10:53:00.000+08:00

Whooping ASS, its been a hell 5months since I've M.I.A. And i know some of my friends have alr ORD-ed. That's 2 years of NS passed after the antagonising wait... And well another part of my life is going to be over. Hopefully, things will become smoother and gentler ahead of me. Can't wait for December to come.. its like prison-break, sth along that line.

But this post is going to be the fear and thrill of driving police vehicles. I got my police license a month back, and till the day before, did i get to drive the vehicle. So my 1st drive was on Wed's night, purpose was to drive the vehicle to OLD PA for tml car wash. It was at night, around 8pm and it was still drizzling slightly. The best part is i hate to drive at night because it takes alot of concentration at night than in the day. And like i mentioned earlier, it was drizzling. The back gate was closed so we had to make a big round mount pleasant road back to P.I.E then to the front gate. Funny thing was how i follow a taxi into the bus-stop unknowingly because i thought it was the turning point to the gate. But almost immediately after realising my mistake, swiftly manoeuvred back into the lane. However, after successfully overcame this obstacle, i almost missed the turn instead. And turning with gear 3 was definitely not advisable. At last we made it 'safely' to the destinated slot.

My 2nd drive came right after the virgin drive on the next day. This time was to pick up the washed car from OLD PA. But it was a miserable day to begin with. The weather was once again not in our favor sadly. Now after picking up the car, my colleague in one car (that used to go to old PA), and i'm in the other clean car had to go to top up fuel. We went E division, but the pump there was spoilt. A Div wasn't in working condition either. And we were told the nearest police-affiliated base with kiosk was SOC in queenstown. Oh did i ever mention it was the 1st time i learn how to actually go about step-by-step, refill the tank? It was a good experience really because if you are actually driving public cars, you would have missed the wonderful experience of doing it manually. Come to think of it, the trend is to stop at a Shell Outlet, opened the fuel cover and yelled at the worker "V-Power pls". This time-saving process has indeed made younger generation too dependent on such efficiency that had hence deprived them of the basic knowledge. I hope some1 will teach me how to change a tyre 1 of these days... Ok back to topic, the weather had changed drastically and it was hard to follow my colleague (tailgating car) in the rain. Then there was this incident when i was horn-ed for cutting into a MOP's lane even though i believe it wasn't my fault. But you know, it just felt that damn bad to be warned, while driving police vehicles because you never knew if the MOP will complain to TP and you will get a call down by IO (Investigation Officer) for questioning. Was quite worried yesterday though it was not entirely by guilt, rather it was because i do not want something to happen to me during NS. Hmm, quite scary experience yahh.. Luckily my colleague was good with direction and we managed to reach SOC in good piece though we were all drenched while refilling petrol at the kiosk.. Haha for your info, police petrol kiosk has no shelter in bad weathers.

ok i believe i will improve if theres a chance to drive again.. haha

Liverpool are BACK!

2008-10-27T09:35:00.000+08:00

Whoo, 86 matches unbeaten home run ended by my favourite team, Liverpool!

I'm currently in a ecstatic mood that only Liverpool fans can understand.

And while Liverpool may have been back, i'm also back!!! My laptop is fixed and i will start updating my dead blog soon.

I'm going to go shopping-crazy in December before christmas! So i'm calling out to all shopping-fanatics out there: JOIN me and together we will rock the streets with our fashionable styles.

I still remember theres a quote give by Men's Health in the last edition.
"If the cut of the costume indicates intellect and talent, then the colour indicates temper and heart."

comp down :(

2008-10-02T15:00:00.000+08:00

Wondered why i have not updated my blog for so long? Its because my comp is down.

Last sat when i watch Torres scored a brace within a span of 5mins, that got me truly excited and in the midst of the excitement, i overturned my bottle of plain water into my laptop. So the water was like happily seeping into the puny holes in-between the keys. And when i was frantically trying to drain the water out of the laptop, my screen went bust and off. I presumed the water had short-circuited the whole system in the laptop/battery hence now i could not even switch on my comp (no signal detected etc).

Please do not tell me my motherboard had spoilt for those computer wizards out there. Its the most expensive part in the whole system!! I'm still waiting for Zhiyuan to revert back his technician's contact again so i can seek assistance to get my laptop repaired asap.

My carelessness had got the better of me this time round. A few hundred bucks wasted for the repair that will definitely come my way. A cost too pricely to pay...

So October has arrived. F1 is over. My accumulated duty off has reached 18 days. In a few more mths, i will exchange my warrant card for my freedom. Sounds good to be true. Oh and all hail great KOP. I love liverpool and i'm going to influence people around me too. Lets hope luck will stay this way this coming week while facing rich boys' city..

broken hoo-doo

2008-09-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

I felt good after seeing my fav team, Liverpool won 2-1 @ home against Man Utd, even when Gerrard and Torres were benched.

The score could have been 3-1 or 4-1 if Liverpool could execute better finishers' stuns. But then we can all come to this conclusion that Man Utd was really bad defensively yesterday. With Vidic sent off, i wonder how they are going to cope against a brilliant Chelsea's attack next weekend though the latter's captain, Mr John also saw straight RED against Man City.

If Liverpool can continue to play with such gusto and pure determination, and not those sloppy performance against Aston Villa the previous week, i'm certain they can be a serious contender this season. Benitez should just stick to his line-up instead of experimenting with his rotation policy.

I think Liverpool is no longer a two men team like what so many have exclaimed to be. Mascherano is the new Kop's Hero and i think he really worked very hard. Like last season when he is sent off, liverpool was thrashed 3-0 by the devils eventually. But i'm pretty satisfied with the overall play. Oh well, I think liverpool should get a better quality right-back in the January transfer window.

So i have came to a conclusion after 4 matches of epl season.

Man Utd will never win EPL this season. Unless, ronaldo can come back from his injury and prove me wrong. I do not believe i will have a high probability of eating my words. heh.

I'm looking forward to next weekend too. Man Utd vrs Chelsea. Both central defenders unavailable for this big match. I pray hard for a draw pls. So while Liverpool is having fun entertaining Stoke @ home which i predict the outcome to be a AOS exact score on the bet slip of local pools, this is the time for pool to sit @ the top of the table with a better goal difference.

But of cuz, i hope Pool can win Marseille in France this wed morning. A tricky test to overcome before they can really be trusted to be consistent.

You will never walk alone. And of cuz i had added a new quality that my future girlfriend should have. Must love Liverpool as much as i do.

signs of me being more angmo

2008-09-07T20:19:00.003+08:00

Few years back, if you told me i'm too chee-na, i probably would just give a cold shrug.

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And now i guess i have became more skeptical towards such comments.

In view of such despondence arose from such trivial matters, i have begaN to move towards a more bilingual state by the below means.

Read english newspaper/storybooks everyday.
Check dictionary for unknown vocabulary i've came across.
Practise english grammer assessment books.
Communicate in English whenever i remember hopefully =P
Buy english albums to listen and read the meaningful lyrics.

I did all those till there was this moment in office where i revealed signs that i have forgotten how to speak proper chinese.

There was this task assigned to me to call up the companies to find out their address so that we can send invitational cards to them to invite them to attend a security briefing cordially organized by ISD & SPF. So after speaking in english politely to the receiver at the other end of the cord, he said something like "你可以讲华语吗?"

I was like O.0! My mind was in a frenzy when i realised i had to repeat what i just said in chinese.

So i nearly forgot how to translate Singapore Police Force into chinese. -.- And of cuz i still did not have any clues how to properly address "security briefing" in chinese. Any1 care to tag me the right translations pls? Worse still, when i wanted to ask him for his company's postal code, i had to struggle for quite sometime before muttering "那个六个号码" :O Oops, i know i deserve to die. But i can't recall the last time i actually wrote the word '邮区'.

So this was me, a typical cheena person that has forgotten simple chinese.

I'm sorry, i have to be realistic i guess. Pretty girls usually speak english now (nono mich i'm nt refering to you, say me meanie, blame urself for saying ur unbeatable :P ) So i told you i will work towards being a more ang mo pai person.

Yes mich, thanks for complaining i was a cheena person. Your criticism has prompted me to work even harder to be what i actually want. Don't worry people, i will not lose my originality or nationality or whatever. Just that when i thought about the notion of "erosion of our mother tongue language", it just pipes me up a lil. Guilty perhaps.

So yes i love english. Oh no, i'm not acting. I do love english *cross my finger*

Having slight fever now. maybe i will get a MC tml :) Most imptly, happy 25th birthday to my 2nd sis!

mentally strong

2008-08-31T19:55:00.004+08:00

what i can't get now, i will work hard for it. and thats what make me special.

and its going to be thru legal means. i promise i will deliver.

tml is 1st of september. time really flies. i have to grow as fast as time.

i'm fine, than you

2008-08-22T15:39:00.003+08:00

Hi people, greetings from me. I'm still the same. Hate my eyes. Going for operations next year. Anyway, i'm fine, thank you. see you people soon.

P/S: My place is quite messy, don't laugh. Thats me.

busy august

2008-08-20T11:04:00.001+08:00

Today is 12th August. Happy Birthday to Vanessa Oh and Mu Xuan. And the 12th of each month is the best of each month. Because it is 'Pay Day!'. But i wasn't exactly happy about the pay slip. Which again brings me to lament something bad about NSPIs. They just do not know how to take care of NSFs honestly.

Anyway, August is pretty a busy month for me, maybe its due to the courses i have been so actively participating or because of the many many duties i have been involved in. NDP duties are finally over, i'm so glad about that. Next is the Sept's F1 duty and very very soon merry merry christmas is approaching. And then my all-time favourite holiday! Happy Chinese New Year!!! And ORD-O!!!

Btw i must quite admit i do not like photo-blog. But then while i was doing ndp duty at ritz carlton, i can't help but to take some fireworks display. Considering i was at 29th floor of the prestigeous hotel, its really 1st-class view (you do not have to elevate your head to see the fireworks - this happens to the audience at grandstand). All those bright sparkles/glitters are like money of different colours. Thrown into air - just for that few minutes of the performance. However if you compare it to the opening ceremony of the Beijing Olympics, this is peanuts to many of you.

I finally get to upload the pics into blogger @ office since my house laptop kept giving me the same error message. Beautiful pics, ain't they? has to admit i wasn't a born-photographer.

So today was already 20th August, and happy birthday to daniel.

Radio has taken over MSK duty from us, i should be glad its over, but somehow i was abit unwilling because there will be no more off days for me to go swimming and do other stuff which i want to, since all my leaves this year had been consumed. Was accumulating all EDO for next year so i can be free in Feb onwards to look for new job. Has been thinking thru quite sometime, is contemplating same old office-work type of jobs and maybe relief teaching at some schools. Hopefully i have good lobangs when the time comes. But if not, its back to Recruit Express for me. Its the same old feeling when i visit the many branches 2 years back and everything has to start from scratch again. Fill up some stupid forms and undergo interview and last but not the least - to wait for that damn phonecall to reach me to tell me a firm is interested in me and thats not going to happen, i reckon. Since all firms will prefer GIRLS to guys -.-"

Good luck to Sam and Yuliang for their TPs :) I'm sure you people can do it again!!

NSPI

2008-07-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

All along i have been procastinating that NSPIs (National Service Probation Inspectors) aren't that deserved to be such high-achievers and today i have gotten a classic example to show why. Now now, have i cleared your misunderstandings to their acronyms? That P does not stand for POLICE, instead it is PROBATION. In gist, probation is = 'so near yet so far'. I really wonder how these OCTs where chosen, they should have inputted the quality of "EQ" to the list, perhaps this would have been a better selection. Come to think of it, NSPIs(OCTs) are OCS-REJECTS, so if you are comparing standards, Police will have been given a sub-standard share of talents.

I can't stop seething. The vehement hostility in me towards NSPIs has reached another stage.

So i shall now briefly provide this background story which will lead to the climate later. In my police headquarters, all NSFs are supposed to perform a so-called 'guard duty' for at least 1 week each. So coincidentally, i was scheduled to have my duty this week. For your infomation, NSPIs were treated as kings in headquarters so their duties were to ensure the NSFs(ppl like me) did actually go down to perform our duty, be it in the morning or during lunch break. Because of my mc for these 2 days, i was unable to execute my role hence being responsible, i sms-ed this young chap NSPI called Justin Goh. Below is the exchange of SMSes. Have fun reading them ;)

ME : Justin. Yushu from ops dept here. Tml n wed i cant do my duty bcuz im on mc. Juz went ttsh 2 c doc cuz both my arms r super itchy due to red spots. Sorry 4 e trouble. Hope u uds.
J.G : Take care & get well soon, but i dun believe tt u can't do duty due 2 mc. Depends on whether one wants 2 or not. Anw, i swapped duty w NSPI Fan Weijian fr logs.
ME : Thanks for your concern. Sorry to disappoint you, im really sick dis time round n e medication will make me drowsy. Btw if ur on mc, do you noe that by going out n cont duty, u can b charged? Nt 4getting ur an NSPI, i believe u'll know. And you sure have a funny way of seeing things. Informing u is my responsibility n a way of courteousy and respect to you. Yup so I'll cont my duty on thurs n fri so dun worry.
J.G : I'm refering 2 things in general. Wouldn't it b nice if u told me u wanted 2 do duty even though on mc, & i would commend u 2 ur boss. Anw, have fun scratching.
ME : Save your compliment dude. If you are that free, you can also complain to my boss that i refuse to do duty while im on mc.well im so glad kenny,andrew, glamis are in ops and not you.oh nt to worry, e medication does e magic :) thx 4 ur concern anw.

So after reading through these smses, do you have the same curiousity/thoughts as me to find out who is this intelligent piece of chap and where was he from previously? I really want to investigate the background of this psycho-possible dude that has incurred the wrath of me. What will be your reaction/reply if he has sent you the very 1st msg? With that tinge of sarcasm in it, i really don't think its that necessary if he thinks i was slacking. Really have no idea what's going through his mind, perhaps he just eager to display his power as a NSPI, and as if i will be promoted to SC/SSGT if he has complimented me in front of my boss or if, they will add more meat into the packaged food i have sincerely requested them to help me purchase since they went out for lunch? My boss would have probably called me NUTS to be doing duty while i'm on MC. Ahh, that would have been the outcome, ain't it? An idiotic workaholic who wants to show he can work till he dies? lolx.

But honestly, the 1st impression doesn't come from these series of messages. That particular monday morning itself, i have already tasted the appetizers of his bittersweet character. My duty was in the noon from 1230-1430pm. At 0906am, while i was walking towards Novena's Twin Towers (which is actually my place), he called me and gave me a gentle reminder that i have duty that afternoon. Ok, this is good and i've gladly accept his reminder because at least it proves he doing his job. But then the conversation went into a nasty twist when he asked me where was i after i had replied no to his question of "Are you in office yet?" I think thats super redundant to inform you my whereabouts like i'm your dog. (ok i should not decimate myself to be such low-level type of species, but i can't see a purpose to be reporting my tracks to him when i'm scheduled for afternoon shift.

So feeling quite pissed about it, i carried this vengeance throughout that 2 hrs of duty i had @ noon. And this mysterious young man finally revealed himself (we had only communicated through email and phone) by approaching me when he went out for lunch. So there was this other moment which triggered off my venom when he was back from lunch. He asked if i have had lunch, and i replied "no" in a *bo-chap* manner particularly because i was still fuming over the morning's encounter with him. Then he say i can play around with my bosses after my duty and gain their sympathy to go for lunch. At that instance, i was thinking "hellO, i am here longer than you were, and i know how to play the rules of the game better than you." I don't find it helpful to be offered such advice when my stomach is empty and yours burping satisfactorily. He could well instead buy me maybe a $2.50 packet of rice with 2 vege and that will be most appreciated by me, instead of stepping on my toes and spamming me with his impractical suggestions.

Is that what NSPIs are capable of? Laughing at people's miseries? They are paid a hundred bucks more for that kind of service excellence we are discussing about?

Fuck off. Come back only if you have the capability pls.

alcohol allergy!

2008-07-28T22:26:00.001+08:00

"Your condemned to be a good boy" said the man in white at TTSH. I could only managed a small grin unwillingly. Part of me knew there will always be a slight disadvantage to be kept aside from alcohols. But i just cannot sacrifice the "highness" yield from gulping down tingling white wine for that itchyness that comes right after.

I have alcohol allergy. It runs in the family line if i ain't wrong. My eldest sis also has it.

So sorry kelvin, i know i promise i will go drink and club with you in december, in additon dragging YL and Marcus along. Its impossible now. We can only go dance, but i cannot afford to drink. And deepest apologies to all my friends waiting for me. )=

Its fated i guess. Save money on alcohol, but great sex is still possible =P

On 2 days MC, starting from tomorrow. It will be a good break for me so that i can stay at home to do some econs work which i have been ignoring for the past few days. I will be a good boy and do what i have to. Take some time off office which is a headache to me partly because of someone who is so self-centred. J is so screwed now. I can only hope he won't become extinct in their hands. 7 more months to go. I must endure.

oakley spects

2008-07-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

I bought myself a pair of Oakley SPects today. Pay $400 for it. It was what i like, big frames and sporty-looking type of spects. And i already chose the cheaper of the models for the brand. And theres another reason why it is so expensive. I was offered the choice to make my lens transition. That means it will change colour under sunlight :) so it has this dual versatility between a normal glasses and shades. cool! Apity my parents would not sponsor the $400 cost-price of the spects, so i have to dig my own purse and pay part of the fee.

I don't think theres anymore reason i will not wear my spects nomore. Ms Lee told me i need to start loving my spects on my face to save my eyes. And i couldn't care much about my appearance. Its true that eyes are the priority in communication. And 1st impression is about effective 1st communication that revolves round eye contact and many more.

Thats it. Now i'm a friend of spectacles.

I just love spending my night time reading Mens Health. It just tells you everything you need to know to be a successful Man. Trust me, i just finish the August Edition when it is 27th July today.

MOS

2008-07-26T12:40:00.000+08:00

I had dinner with my police colleagues at Amara Hotel organised by NCPC (National Crime Prevention Council) in appreciation for the past year effort my division had poured in. I wasn't invited initially because NSFs are not included in the list. But i came in replacement for 1 of the regular who was on leave. And i have nothing much more to say about the dinner except the food really wasn't up to my expectations, being on extreme ends - either too sweet or too oily. And its the first time i wore formal attire (shirt, pants and leather shoes) and i put on colonge (OMG~!). And their expressions were 'wow' cuz being in C.I for 1 year, they had seen all my sloppiness in my dressing and my excuse is as always there's no one i have to impress while going to work.

So after dinner, we went to Dempsey Road (a hippier Holland Village as described by my boss). And i guess its true afterall that its has a similar concept as H V but this place is for people are exceptionally richer than others. Why? because its off a slip road between TanGlin Road and Holland Road (quite inaccessible) and the outlets there are more high-classed. So this is where i had my first ever 3 glasses of wine (2 Red and 1 White), white being smoother because there will not be a dry tingling feeling after you drink it. After a few hours, we headed to MOS where this is the 1st time i went clubbing -.- Haha i do not really know how to describe such virgin experience but i guess it can be pretty addictive. I guess you do not need me to write something about the girls there, but because i'm such not a flirt(ok im pretty shy boy), i did not approach any girls to dance with.

Ok go on and scold me why i have to break my vow that i would nt go clubbing or drinking. But i guess its part of growing up process. At least now i have a personal experience that i can share with fellow clubbers without actually not knowing what they are trying to discuss. But most imptly of course, i feel safer with mata bosses around. Yea so i can enjoy the crowd and atmosphere properly without worrying so much about angering surrounding people.

I had went for a check-up on my eye after 5 solid years of AFK @ Mount Elizabeth, eye clinic. You can probably get a hunch that i go for the examination because i want to improve my appearance and that this eye problem had always been a thorn in my flesh. Oh so the doctor said i need a operation soon and i think next year Jan will be a good year for me to go for the operation since i will need at least 1 month to recover.

I will be handsome again :)

But im feeling quite uncomfortable over the post syndromes of drinking. As occassionally i do feel a bit if itch on my left hand and my body is still experiencing exothermic heat reactions. LOL! Guess i need more practice!

still have not changed

2008-07-23T10:11:00.000+08:00

At this very moment while i'm typing this entry, the inch of guilt lingering in my heart still stands. the vivid picture of the handphone in the pouch still creeps in my mind.

Just what terrible deeds have i done? :(

Actually, i have done nothing. And the act of ignorance is the part where i have done wrong. This rainy morning, while i was on the bus <<985>> to work, a student had left his handphone on the vacated seat when he was alighting at the stop to Swiss Cottage Secondary School. As the crowd of students were dispersing through the exit door, my main focus was to get a seat since its going to be a lengthy journey to Toa PAyoh stop. When i first saw the handphone, i should have took it and gave it to the bus captain. But i didn't. And thats the part where i have sinned 'selfishly' because at the point of time, i immediately turned to the opposite seat that is also empty. And while i was contemplating on my next move after i'had seated comfortably, the handphone had disappeared from the seat unknowingly! I can confirm some idiot took it and kept it himself. I couldn't verify who had just walked past me so eventually this is a case of blatant theft right under my nose due to my inconsiderate-ness!

Hais, the book i have read previously told me if i have took the hp and gave it to the captain, it would be the 3rd-level of thinking and that is where people who can do just that will succeed. Apparently i was too bothered about my ownself and my opportunity cost that is to stand all the way to my destination if i took the extra steps to return the handphone to the driver and in turn, find that all the empty seats have been taken up by those kiasu aunties/uncles.

A bad start to my day indeed.

standard chartered marathon

2008-07-22T22:36:00.000+08:00

For the past few years, i have been helping out in the pre-activities of the annual standard chartered marathon event. This year it is going to be different.

Because i have decided to take up the challenge of half-marathon (21.1km) to prove that my 6 mths of isolation has paid off. I think its going to be a huge test for me, my determination and perseverance.

The event starts at 630am at the esplanade bridge (after esplanade drive) on a sunday morning, dec 7th. I forsee i'll need at least 2 hrs to complete this run.

So if anyone is interested to run tgt, you're definitely welcome to join me.

I'm not the same weak yushu no more. you shall see.

ord shoot

2008-07-21T22:18:00.001+08:00

People always say a man can never be lucky twice consecutively. Or in short, not everytime your attempts will be 'Sunday'. However, i've seem to break the deadlock by passing my ORD Shoot today with the help of the Range Instructor there @ tracom :) I still can remember vividly that during my BPT, i did manage to get 2nd class thanks to my Range Instructor then. But i had to admit the help last time was in a way more appreciated by me of the 2 separate incidents. So i had my ORD shoot just now at 2pm with the hope of achieving marksman + $200. Had to fire 60 bullets in total. The 1st 10 being the trial shots while the last 50 is to be calculated for the score. Let me explain how the scoring system works by describing the target we were to aim. So the cardboard is actually imprinted with a man that had a rectangle in it. For shots that puncture the inside of the rectangle + head, we get 2 points each. For shots that embed the rest of the body, we earn ourselves 1 point each. And last but not least, a big '0' for shots that missed the man. Dividing the 50 actual shots into two parts (which i have forgotten the terms for them unfortunately), we should get 24 points for the 1st part (20 shots) in order to cross the passing mark and 36 points for the 2nd part (out of a possible 60points a.k.a 30 shots). 60-69/100 will be 2nd class/pass, 70-79/100 will be 1st-class and 80 & 80+/100 will be marksman. The 1st 10 shots as i have mentioned earlier are trial shots and these shots really tighten me up, like having butterflies in the stomach, because i have only 6 shots in the man. Well to be frank, out of the 6 shots that i was able to get into the man, only 2 were worthed 2 points each. All my shots were clustered to the left side of the target and this dropped me a clue that i had to aim slightly to the right alignment for the 50actual shots. Well, the next 20 shots, i only scored a miserable 5,7,8. Ok, i have to explain myself again. The 1st number is number of shots that went missing/missed the man. The 2nd digit represents the shots that went into the rectangle/head while the 3rd number is shots that pierced the rest of the body. However, i wasn't informed or should i say i had totally forgotten how the scoring system works so the fact that i scored 22 points did not sink into my head i have failed my shooting. The remaining 30 shots i scored slightly better which is 3,20,7 = 47 points. By right, 47 +22 = 69, i should pass! But for the 1st part, 24 is needed to be considered pass hence the bottom line is a shame yet so beautiful. Fail any 1 part, you fail the whole shoot. But when i was about to face the harsh reality that i failed by signing against the score, the Range Instructor whispered to me "2nd class". I was really flabbergasted since in my heart i had swallowed the anguish down painstakingly. I shouldn't delude myself that i fail my shoot. But since god is here to offer his help, why not then? Alright, i shall just pretend i pass my ord shoot, though right now while punching these keys, i know it wasn't what i deserve.

Hmm, guess i was rather long-winded for this entry on ORD shoot. But on a more positive note, the 1st month of isolation has passed successfully except for the fact that i fell sick on 16th july(my 1 mth of isolation). Right now, have to recap on what i have to do and what i have done. But honestly, i doubt i have completed major objectives like having 6 packs on my body or whatever that deemed a huge clap on my shoulder for my success. But i guess some things we just have to take one step at a time. But most importantly, we have to be consistent and not let the slow pace of comfort ruin our determination and perseverance.

I have embarked on my cooking lessons at CC. But of course, do not be fooled by the sentence above as there is something that i must share with you all. Cooking lessons in CC will not let you have a practical part of it. Basically what you actually learn is through taking down notes and watching the trainer's demonstrations. Yea i can tell you to be a effective cook, 80% of the success comes from the practical piece of work and 20% is due to effective memorisation of the steps to take. Up to this day, i have attended 2 cooking lessons - 1 on agar-agar making as well as the other on making 3 mouth-watering western dishes. Apologies for no colourful pictures attached here for your viewing, i'm not a photo-taking lover. Its pretty unglam to see all the aunties in the classes stomped the front and took pictures of the ingredients, the equipment frenzily. But i can't deny these pretty visuals actually do help in the preparations of the dish at home. Some interesting facts include in the dessert-making class, out of 27 students, i was the only guy and the rest are aunties. Terrible, isn't it? But i had to take down my pride and put on a spurious smile to hide my embarrassment. However i do enjoy my western-dishes class last sat as you know its quite a romantic feel to prepare Italian Spagehetti with creamy white sauce for your ideal partner on Valentine's Night. Ok thats ambitious but i'm bursting with fervour for the day to come.

And yes jasmine, i will be honoured to cook for you. But then as a precaution, please do prepare a bottle of stomachache pills =P

For fitness-wise, i have decided to cut down on carbo-intake and increased my protein/calcium intake by reducing my rice content and drinking more milk. Realise that running and swimming aren't good enough to reduce the spare tyre in my stomach :X Well, its quite obnoxious in a way to me that my belly will "bulge out" when i bend down or sit down. Those men health covers are way too menacing because the more i think of it, the more i cannot resist the temptation to burn off those irking lumps of fats. However, this year i manage to complete my Saucony River 4.4km Run without stopping under the intense heat. Well, people may jeer that 4.4km is so short, but i beg to differ because Yushu is never bornt a sportsman. and indeed its an accomplishment for me acknowledging the fact that my daily morning runs have paid off. I went to gym daily but then i just failed to make any considerable impacts on the shape and size of my arms. Will revise the methods soon through heeding tips and advice from mens' health. In addition, i just love swimming in Bukit Batok Home Team NS because its free and effective. To think that i have a lifeguard license previously in secondary. How cool is that. But till date, it has expired and performing CPR now will be an arduous task.

Lets see, i shall now talk about a more boring topic which is academics. Had not done anything much to improve my english except reading more books. Currently, i'm glued onto a fiction book titled Bangkok Eight by John Burdett. Its a blasting combination when the West meets the East and the storyline is really intriguing that you will not ever think of putting the book down. Hmm thats sound so cliche isn't it? Like some conventional advertisement selling off their products. But thats me with low standard of english. Oh is doing exceptionally well for econs too. Coming to Market Failure soon and that is the last topic for year1. Its an unbelievable tale as i took only 1month for a year of work? hmm, but then i guess i should have poured in more effort to link and apply what i have learnt instead of being satisfied by the individual concepts that stands on it own respectively. On another note, i have completed several self-development books that have groomed my thinkings maturely.

There are more milestones to be further discussed. But then i guess the next entry you will see me narrating on my dance course @ Tanglin CC, karate course @ Toa Payoh East CC and areas of improvements as well.

I know all these things were too late. But i also know that if you do not try, you'll never succeed.

credit/debit cards

2008-07-13T07:35:00.000+08:00

I do not know why, but I'm just fascinated by the world of shiny cards. Was browsing through the various banks' websites and seeing how many debit cards are out there for me to apply. I ain't a lucky boy to be frank, i have no supplementary cards from my parents. So all these cards that i have, had all experienced through rains and shines. Its true that cards without the hidden credit inside are white elephants, or you can address them as vases that are for decoration purposes. I'm a self-initiated young guy that is driven by the two Cs, cash and credit cards. It just feels safe with money around you. But the bottom line is that, never do boast that you have the money.

I had a complaint that i want to lament here badly enough that actually prompts me to start this sudden entry, 6:41 am in the morning. And this argument was a add-on to many users' voices. So guess what? I really think the new UOB NOW Debit card is ugly. And worst of all, the three-lettered word, N-O-W, were imprinted across the whole card that really does not spark me NOW to make purchases using that card. Rather i just got an opposite feeling to stop using that card NOW. The colour is red and this makes it look like any other OCBC cards since red has been OCBC franchise colour all along. And the UOB Mini Card that I've applied has been rendered useless! It just struck me hard on the head that i have not got to use that card ONCE. Why should they actually go combine all those mesmerizing cards to 1 single card that really leaves no appetite to hungry beings? Oh yes, you can sense my anger is building up into a rage. And why should i bear such a grudge against UOB is mainly because this pioneer company that i started out with, did not send me the replacement card! It was only until all my friends started talk about this matter and then i realised UOB will alienate customers that have a deep low savings of $10 in the bank! *Smirks!*. So i have to go to my original branch to sign up for my card and i merely made a stinging comment that "must be UOB does not like low savings customers" and the employer that was attending to me quickly replied "no la". Oh and why i have so little money in UOB is because UOB is my "paying-bills" bank. So its like i will credit my tuition money into UOB and from there i will utilise the remaining funds to pay for the likes of hand phone m1, scv digital cable and my prudential savings plan bills etc"

Another reason why i hate the new collaboration between banks and ezlink company is that NOW, i can't just tap by placing my wallet against the reader. It will have loud wailing "beep" sounds that say error. And why is there this mishap? Because the UOB NOW card has an electronic purse that can be sensed by the reader even though its not activated. So as you all know, we will use our NS or student Ez-link card for payment purposes so this new acquired function will complicate matters by creating an unnecessary din, which means from the day I've put the NOW card into my wallet, i had to take out my ezlink every time i make a tap against the reader. Super lecih(troublesome in Malay) sia. Lucky I'm using bus concession now which saves me some trouble since i do not have to tap when i alight from the bus you see.

So anyway back to topic about credit cards, a bank that has always caught my attention was Citibank. So there was this Citibank Clear card that stopped me in my tracks and i was on to it. Basically it functions as a credit card but with maximum credit limit of $500. So in other words, you get to enjoy privileges like a normal credit card users but you have to clear your debt once it reaches $500. Relatively promising because for student and NSFs, there is no minimum income/deposit and you get to enjoy the satisfaction of signing for goods. But there is still this problem that for people below 21 years' old, there is a must for parents' consent. Hence i guess i shall officially get this card when i go into uni next year then. Will be more appropriate since i still am considering to get a debit card from DBS if i really get into NUS. Speakign about these universities-banks representatives. OCBC is the main bank for NTU and SMU while for NUS its DBS. Was kind of baffling as to why will UOB gives up its right to be the main spokesperson for NTU then.

The trickiest part is still convincing my mum to let me withdraw all money from my POSB trust account with her next year. As you know, trust account requires the guarantor to operate any transactions hence i guess that's going to be the difficult part. Its still better to have a DBS/POSB card in your wallet as they are the main market holder in singapore. Well i guess that leaves me with no choice but to go NUS since i can comfortably argue my way out by saying with a DBS NUS Debit Card, there are alot of offers/privileges that i can enjoy in NUS. ok sounds silly but i just want to manage my own funds thats all. Theres always this better feeling of managing your own wealth under your hands for rainy seasons.

My savings has rose gradually since the start of my isolation plan. But the amount of money spent on food is still a large percentage i guess. And i really need to spend some money to get myself a formal pants and leather boots for the dinner next next friday at Amara hotel. Not forgetting my sis's wedding in september 4th, kind of dreading the notion of going shopping when i want to maximise my savings.

And thank you specially to my ma'am ASP jenny sim for buying me a white adidas watch that will matched perfectly with my tanned skin.

updates!!

2008-07-09T11:48:00.000+08:00

Just a short update to show my existence.

Its been 3 weeks without any solid entertainment, kind of mentally and physically taxing. Everytime i ran in the cold morning air, the same question popped into my mind "Is what you doing worth it?" But its this question that make me complete the 45mins run successfully, that gives me the strength and determination to keep on fighting till the very end.

I am regretting the fact that i never pay any serious attention in econs class. Because right now, i am having extra difficulty in getting all these concepts into my head. Even have to take half-day leave just to finish up my homework later on. I told myself i have to spend at least 1 hour a day from 10pm to 11pm after watching "beach ball babes", on revision of econs but just cannot fulfill that small promise of mine.

I'm worn down. very very tired. wonder how i'm going to survive that 5+more months of hardship.

Feel like going to the sea and spend my day alone shouting till my voice go hoarse.

Now i know why teenagers in this generation abhor being alone. The feeling is loathsome. This explains why more and more gangs are being formed.

ok i have to constantly prompt myself that this is seriously nothing as compared to what those construction workers under the intense sun, those south african kids that are suffering in famine and people in those third-world country are experiencing. For the sake of a bright future, i shall cease writing and continue memorising these convoluted concepts.

moments of anguish

2008-07-03T17:53:00.000+08:00

Monday night was the 1st night i took MRT home since 16th june 08 a.k.a isolation plan starts. I prefer to take bus home mainly because i can get to save alot on transport fees that do form a streneous strain on my allowance. Though its still consider bus concession, but the hefty $61 is really expensive. Compared to previous student's concession, NS's concession makes a BIG difference. Maybe its due to considerations of adult fees. Ok back to topic, so i took train from novena. I think around after bishan stop, there was this male adult who collapsed on the ground panting and struggling in difficulty. So is this kind of illness called stroke or fit? Worse still, blood was coming out from his mouth. At first, i wasn;t quite aware of the commotion because i was blasting music from my Ipod. Then all the commuters start looking back and thus i discovered something is amiss. Was thinking in mind maybe there is an affray behind between 2 persons. However, to my horror, there was a looking fit-and-able guy down in excruciating pain. Luckily there are three kind adults who assisted him by holding his mouth and supporting him. Uncertain on the descriptions but then things happened in a whiz, hence the next moment i recall was that 1 of the commuters was speaking loudly into the "emergency hole" where you can communicate to the train captain. So at AMK station, those 3 samaritans lifted him out of the train to the platform where a SMRT lady officer was asking via walkie-talkie to the control station to call 995.

The main reason why i blogged about this incident was that i actually felt guilty because as a policeman, though i'm serving NS, but still is a policeman, failed to control the situation. There were many on-lookers who are like me, did not know anything on helping the poor guy, but just stand down there forming a crowd which impede on the rescuing process. Honestly i didn't even know what is that illness as well as the ways to perform necessary first-aid while waiting for AB to come. Imagine if i'm the only person who wass down there alone and there was this same fated guy with me, god knows how i'm supposed to help him. Sometimes, its better to be arm with the relevant knowledge so at least we can save a life in need. I do not know if its a recurring sickness for the guy, but anyway its still feels saddening. Life is really unpredictable and we really do not know if the next step we take will lead us to a hole/trap that is the end for us. Cherish all moments in life and we can secure all wonders gifted by heaven.

And as much as i want to slack my life away, there is nothing as FREE and EASY solution to living life. Perhaps if i am given a chance, i will see many many different things in life. Now i have to count on my lucky stars. Bless me with good friends, a kind-hearted & pretty girlfriend. a healthy and happy family, ample wealth and many more i will say. No, it should be bless everyone in the world with this good fortune. Like what they say, no-one can be happier without a happy environment to be in.

updates

2008-06-27T09:30:00.002+08:00

Its been nearly 2 weeks since the start of the self-discovery plan.

Been doing quite well except maybe disciplinary still fails to make an impact. I did not spend my evening time (on weekdays) effectively. Had contemplated to read more story books and do more english assessment books. But theres a monster in me that asks me to call it a day on the bed. Some type of dark evil creature that grabbed you tightly in the legs and held you back to fulfill what you have to do.

On a more positive note, i'm working hard on my fitness area. Went swimming and running interchangeably on a regular basis. I managed to complete my run today from my house to westmall and back via the route of Bt Gombak Xiao Guilin without stopping even once. But the pace my of running is still considered slow maybe thats why my weight refuses to drop. Holy cow, i'm 68.9kg now. just 3 years back im actually weighed 55kg. But now my bmi is in the acceptable range. There's this lump of belly fat in me thats refusing to go away. With this protective layer of coverage, i can't get my 6 packs!ARGH! I WANT A HOT BODY! something that men health had always captured in the cover page. haha my line of thinking is abit screwed because i believe only a nice body can make the expensive clothes you wore a blast!

I'm going to have my econs tuition later. the teacher is actually from sajc. haha and i vividly remembered his name. so its time to mug hard. haven been online for quite sometime because been feeling extremely lethargic over the days due to streneous gymwork as well as some conditioning running. talking about mugging, you can see the muggish spects i'm wearing currently. every1 called this outlook a nerd outlook. so whats wrong with being a nerd. a nerd can earn millions, can a punk or a clubber do? or should i say the abilty to save money.

This is the second weekend i'm spending time alone. But its sort of unusual because former time was spent on computer games while the time now is actually spent on learning the proper way to apply to life to be a better person. Well, you can see that i'm keep emphasising that i want to be a cleaner and sharper person, not literally i mean, but metaphorically. Its actually my target, my ambition. But these would not have worked if i do not have the insights to doing it the right way. Patience is a virtue that i need to employ to succeed and thats way past me since the usual self was a person who cannot afford to waste time lazing around or spend the antagonizing time waiting for people. would have grudges and millions of rantings to splash about. somehow i just got a crazy feeling 6mths is not ample to fulfill so many wants. i'm telling you i'm still a normal person and im starting to miss watching action-packed movies like "wanted" and "zorhan" that are currently on screen right now in the market.

i have began to accept facts, some elements of cruelty and prejudice that i am not willing to heed in the past. alot of things we cannot change. because we were not certain of the correct protocol in getting to where we yearn and also chances are destiny is not within our control. but the only thing we can change is ourselves and other people. its takes a million to attempt to change the environment but it only takes a person (me), to make this evident difference. i want to achive my goals and i will help others along in the road whenever i can. because i read that "you can achieve your own goals if you can also aid people you meet along the way to achieve their goals". i did not lie to you. i take this statement like how the christians take the type of belief/confidence they want in the bible. Humans beings can never survive alone. but their capabilty of working as a team is their greater strength. the only problem you face is whether the type of people you meet/trust in are people who can steer you to the right direction in life.

july is coming. and july i will have alot of cooking lessons. time will fly fast. august is ndp period. september is f1 period. and when october comes, i will be taking up more courses. have been thinking on some dance and taekwando and badminton courses.

and finally i can crack a damn egg in ease. something i have fear for over the 20years. i want to counter my fears and turn them into opportunities.

adieos people.

i need to see psy doctor

2008-06-19T17:54:00.000+08:00

I was just reminded by Yuliang to go for a healthy examination by making an appointment with the psychologist.

Wen Yin's 'good' news came as a sudden freeze. Kinda expected but it was just a matter of time that made the vast difference. But that made me even more determined to be better.

Nevermind what has transcent. Heck what has transformed. The history of love has never been a straight path. This type of wishy-washy kind of business are just lessons through humans' lives. I'm more goal-bound now.

And finally i smelled it. success.

Soccer Fan

2008-06-19T06:45:00.000+08:00

I may be in isolation but i'm still an avid football fan. nothing is going to stop me from watching/chasing the pulpitating craze of soccer. as much as i yearn to watch euro 2008(which i have subscribed to it), the late matches which only screen at 2:35am daily, clash with my sleeping routine. But i should say Netherlands is owning as well as Spain & Croatia.

My favourite ailen-looking guy, John Arne Riise joined Roma for a 4-years contract. After 7 league seasons with Liverpool, i admit he has shifted down in his skill's level. The disastrous own goal was the triggering point that prompts Rafael to sell him. Oh well i wish him luck. AS ROMA is also a good team, so not too bad for him i guess. Somehow i just got a feeling Barry will join Liverpool from Aston Villa.

There has been rumours linking David Villa to Liverpool. Woah that wld be gr8 since the attacking front of both Spanish strikers Villa & Torres is going to spice up the chase for League Title. Something to make Liverpool a serious contender. Bentley had also stated his desire to leave Blackburn. I just feel he may join either Chelsea or Liverpool since his interest lies in euro football, no way Arsenal going to sign back him.

I guess what Liverpool needs urgently is a good left and right back as well as plucky defenders like Carvalho that can deal with threats beautifully. Finnan, Arbelova, Aurelio are not to my likings, somehow they don't seem to be progressing fast. And why sell Alonso to Juventus when the brazilian's Lucas Leiva seems so normal? No doubt he is still improving as a youngster but he is not good enough to pair Gerrard in the midfield pls.

Yes sign Gareth Barry pls. And get better left winger. Next year will be a better year.

And yes i have quit gambling. Whoo i'm really become better.

2 more days

2008-06-14T01:11:00.002+08:00

It is the same old familiar feeling.

just like the feeling of being on earth on 7:20am 1st june 88. ignorance.

2 more days and it all starts. quite apprehensive bout the whole issue. never really thought of the day when 16th june creeps nearer.

i will brave the storms through the 6mths of upgrading works.

slowly shedding the old skin of mine. you will see a new outlook. some1 who you can tell is a good man ahead.

adieos. till 16th december.

braun buffel

2008-06-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

The state of my wallet now is in a disarray. It was a black Braun Buffel wallet shared by 11 ppl 2 years ago for my birthday. The people are Yuliang, Haowen, James, Hanyang, Shuyu, Fel, Zhongxian, Zhiyuan, kirana, Zhijun & Dency. Thank you all for contributing to the wonderful present. I felt that i had let you people down because i don't think you will believe how i've treated the wallet. Scrapped pieces ripped off and black cover torn in a crumpled manner.

That was 2 years ago when i had this fortune. Good luck never lasts perhaps. All the 11 people except maybe 3 have disappeared. 1 of the 11 drops me a bomb, lol.

This year i wanted a new wallet. And now special thanks to these 3 friends - Yuliang, Marcus and Kelvin - i've gotten a new Braun Buffel Wallet. Really really appreciate it because they had to spend the amount of 4 persons' shares. Felt guilty because they spend so much for me and now im going into isolation, i would nt be there celebrating their birthdays for them, but i will promise to buy them super good presents. Already have in mind the ideal presents. Will pass to them after 16th Dec 08.

Its really good to know that i have friends willing to sit down and eat Seafood stall at kopitiam with me. It is really heart-warming so i promise i will cherish this friendship. Speaking about consistency, i also wana thank Kirana and Zhijun for being there for me all these while. Never fail to meet up despite both happily being in love:P

I really wonder how long will good friends last. Sometimes the unexpected just happens and i'm at a loss. But nevertheless thank you to all my friends for remembering my birthday :)

I don't mind treating people that worth my money. For those greedy, selfish people who make you treat just because they think you're rich, get lost pls. I'm a person who do not mind treating because i'm quite well-to-do, but for it, prove me that you're worth the money and effort.

To fel: pls cheer up ok:) Study hard and i'm sure you can do it!

post birthday

2008-06-04T11:58:00.000+08:00

I deleted my last post because it sounds really bad. So for those who saw it, just erase it from your dear memory pls.

Shall wait for the storm to subside and the sun to shine again.

It was a difficult birthday because i even have to question the integrity of being helpful. A scar that is deeply embedded, a friendship that is ruined and an unforgotten day to be iced.

The more i think of it, the more pissed i am. I have backspaced alot of sentences i planned to post, because i know there are alot of severe implications behind. oh well, 16th june coming soon, i will be following the footsteps of the song by Robbie Williams, to be a better man:) cant be bothered by people who can't think. As far as i am concerned, i want to be a winner in life, those countless setbacks are just steps to success.

7 more days.

2008-05-24T19:52:00.000+08:00

1 year ago, my staurday was burnt by the intense NDP trainings held in MArina. Today, my saturday is burnt by the duty for OPS Capture. Actually come to think of it, it wasnt that bad marching under the sun, at least we were the 1st to march for the nation on the floating platform. 1 year later, i will be most prob in Taiwan with my very good friends. Times seems to flies doesn't it? Actually i'm not a man without dreams. I have bigger, wilder dreams than you can ever imagine. Not wet dreams of course. But i want to be a better person than my DAD who has never cease teasing me that i should find a rich wife to marry. Yet i don't mind because not all wealthy women are materalistc people. Yes and i should help them spend their money. haha ok im joking..

I'm quite worried this year for my birthday actually. haha Every year i have kept all the birthday wishings from friends. But i guess this year, it will decrease :( Because i havent keep in touch with alot of friends for a long time le. haiz. Guess i'm not the 1 that can tolerate being alone/without friends. I really want to go uni soon and meet new friends. haha people say go uni will be very busy. schwork is enough to tie you to your desk and make you a home-bound person. Thats y now i will have to put in the extra effort for the academics part this year so i can be actively involved in camps,activities in school.

1st Goal: To have MANY NEW Friends!!!

Alot of friends are concerned over the ambitious plans that i have. Most give me negative feedback. But honestly, if i have the discipline to endure this 6 mths of self-training, i will definitely be a better man. Then you guys most probably will ask what actually makes me so sure that i will succeed? Because i have faith in myself. I think i still can be better. I know this plan sounds abit crazy, people going hoo-haa over me being stupid/silly. I tell you actually blankly that at this stage in life, there are 2 types of people. 1 is aimlessly walking down a long stretch of road without knowing where it leads. The other 1 is confident that he will walk out of the maze he has since been wandering around into the perfect land where every inhabitants in this universe co-exist peacefully. I'm actually caught in between 2. Because right now although i'm pretty sure i will see the light once again, i just do not know how long it will take for me to reach that avenue. 6mths isn't that long people. Prisoners endure much longer atonement in the cell than just 6 mths and some still failed to change. Will i succeed in my goal in 6mths time? Will i be a better person?

I am still enjoying life right now, took alot of leaves to meet up with different people. But thats something i'm doing excessively right now to keep myself occupied before my training period approaches.

I love my family and i know they want me to be better. If i can prove to my parents i am still the best son they ever have, it has got to be right now. 19yrs i have tried to overcome many different sins but have failed so in my duty. This year is my 20th years of living in singapore. I will be better person.

I hope people around me can be motivated to be better as well. Because i wasn't born a star. No looks nor golden character. But i was given the mighty brains to think. So here i am, writing down my eevry single thoughts to you readers.

Chelsea deserved to win :@

2008-05-22T10:10:00.000+08:00

Honestly, Chelsea deserved to win the Champ League more than Man Utd. The former was twice denied by woodwork. But Man Utd was denied by brilliant Cech & Terry. In the end, a penalty miss by JT ended my horrible morning.

Alright my birthday coming soon. So after my bday i will be a better man :) Any1 rem? :P
Will miss alot of people, nt to worry, i won't go crazy admist the 6mths. LOL!

2 disorders

2008-05-12T10:45:00.000+08:00

Alright, i had my last bet yesterday. It was negative but it was a good night to be at home. I know alot of people lost especially when Bolton drew 1-1 with Chelsea. So congrats to MAn Utd for winning the title, but i still think Wigan should have drawn Man Utd if it wasn't raining.. So EPL season has officially ended, the ticket i have kept so long with me has been rendered useless, but i shall still keep it as a memorable token as a soccer fan. Most prob i will buy Liverpool to win again the next season, and i shall keep counting the number of tickets i will collect back each successive seasons. Year 2008 is not a good year to bet, i realise that whatever i bet just turns out to be opposite. Hmmm, and i was always naive to think that dragons are the luckiest in the hososcope. Friends around me have the same fate as me i guess, you know sometimes the anti-gambling advertisement really depicts true scenarios and perhaps me. If money was that easy to earn, i will most prob be flaunting a BMW in front of you. But it isn't this way at all, so back to square1, i need some weekend jobs!!!

The isolation plan is going good. Dad has given me money to buy my microsoft office 2007 but i haven had the time to drop by at United Squares. I actually had plans to go borders on saturday but i was feeling so sick that i had to rush home in a cab that costs me $20.30 after shopping for presents. Go borders to buy some self-improvement books as well as guides to Microsoft Excel. Anyway, dad has also agreed that i can have my economics tuition soon. With that in mind, i was thnking i should borrow some econs textbooks from seniors or frens. So any kind soul out there that is willing to lend me? The next preparation will be checking for some cooking courses out there in the CCs.

Actually most of you guys should have realise that i have 2 disorders in my body functions. 1 is that i have lazy eyes that make my head tilt in such an angle whenever i look at things. So this problem occurs due to the fact that my right eye is stronger than my left eye. So because i was a kuku for wanting to keep my image, i prefer not to wear any spects, so it actually worsen the problem by straining my eyesight and you know like newton 3rd law, there will always be equal n opposite forces, so nature has to compensate the strain by tilting my head and making me look like alien :( Thus also, my eyes become smaller and i hate it cuz gals usually like big eyes guys de leh. ahhaa problem's here and i'm going to think of a way to improve it within this 6 mths of isoaltion.

Solution : Get a new pair of spects since i will be dealing with books and more books, so its time to heck one's image and focus on getting my eyes bigger. I told dad i wanted to go for operations again just like when i was young, but he say its dangerous. Nvm after i get my spects, i will go make my appointment with my eye specialist at Mount Elizabeth Hospital. and see what the doctor has to offer. GOD pls save my eyes and looks!

After so much of sighing, i've yet to tell you about my 2nd disorder, that is i have slouchy back. Gosh, i think i'm camel. Primary school i actually failed my personal checkup because of back disorder. The reason why i pass it in sec school is beacuse i have my CCA, NPCC to thank. Of all the required marching and PT, it actually helps my back to straighten up, so at that time i wasn't quite worry of this problem until recently, when history repeats itself. The way i sit infr0nt of computer and TV was horrendous, i was rather aghast and ashamed of myself. It has become sucha bad habit that i hope i still have time to cure this problem

Solution : Will make it a promise to sit straight when reading books and i will accompany my mother to see TCM doctors asap to seek for help.

Actually while typing this i have 3rd disorder that is my mouth has a bad habit for twitching whenever i focus my attention on something. Sadly, i do not know what i can do to help myself but i guess i should learn to smile more. i do not want to have a ugly-looking mouth. Haha, so that gals wun be afraid to kiss me. ok i'm joking about this so dun be too serious about what i just say. so many things. so lil time. is it too late for me to change all my ill habits? i hope so. for christians who read my blog, pls help me pray to god. thank you.

change of direction

2008-05-07T09:26:00.005+08:00

gosh now even NTU don't let me go econs la.. it gives me my last choice summore, super dulan. nvm i shall try again nx year, this time i shall put NTU Econs as 1st choice.

If next year i get the same rejection, then i shall go to FASS for econs. i know zx n daniel also going there, but things are different, this time im going to meet new people and im going to study hard.

alright, so now i accepted nus fass 1st. i'm going to consult zhijun for more info tonight.

the 6 mth isolation plan is still on.

fucking nus

2008-05-06T13:46:00.002+08:00

OH i just bloody hell realise i get rejected by NUS Business!!!!

Fucking cheebye piece of shit. I deserve a lanjiao chance lor!!! Talented young man like me you still want to reject. Nub Ass.

Now you guys know why i need this 6 mths of self-change. I'm always whining and complaining. Thats what i have to do, take things in stride and let the negative be positive. I just had to be strong and stop swearing.

I hope my NTU letter will come soon.

declaration of change

2008-05-05T12:26:00.000+08:00

internet has been craZy nowadays. it just keep dc-ing and my sis refuse to call up the technician to fix it. her problem has been worse, she cant sign in for nuts. so the only bad point i can recall is that i cant dota anymore. time to go into isolation, its time for a change.

certainly there are incidents which i live to regret, but sometimes miscommunications is a common platform in life. angry people are people that think for you. so i shan't think about it anymore. i'm just too tired to apologise anymore because it seems i do not change for the better. whatever it is, i'm going to set goals to compensate my idleness thus far. ohh, i received nus FASS letter already, haha and why isit my NTU letter still have not come yet? :(

so now i have told myself i shall not go out anymore. i shall de-activate myself and stay home to fulfill my goals. i know my birthday coming and i still want to meet several people but then birthday is just another day. its not a bigdeal. to protect myself from several ills like excessive gambling. yea nothing is going to tempt me anymore. EPL season ending le, so i'm not going to sign up for the euro soccer thingy. no more betting, using 3 mths to be rid of soccer bettings. so at least when the new season of epl starts, i will not have post-symptons..lol.

i have decided: date of isolation is from 16th june to 16th december 08. During this 6mth period, i will not go out to meet any frends or wat. there are alot of things to accomplish in this period. i shall be kept free frm the world and external activities. pls do not msg me to jio me out because i am giving myself a time to change. sometimes in life, only determinations will persevere in the long race to success and i want to be part of it. there will be no entertainment for me except in house comfort, otherwise it will be truly training.

During this 6mth period i shall name 6 things i want to do badly to upgrade myself.

my physical enhancement. i have always wanted to have a 6 pack body and truth is the lump in my belly is getting bigger with this current routine i am undergoing. and i still have to train for my IPPT which is coming soon. i miss swimming too.
my IT skills. truth is i love the wonders of excel and i want to master the powers of the software. but before that i have to go CHALLENGER shop to buy my microsoft office software. and then at leASt with this basic knowledge, i can find admin job with ease during vacations so that i can earn more money. also, i pretty love adobe photoshop too.
my culinary skills. i have always hated the kitchen except the time when i can find food to eat. i will take some time to go learn from my aunty how to cook basic stuff. for the deserts and other stuff, will need some time to sign up with ONEpa at some nearby CC for courses.
my econs. assume that i am selected by NTU, i will go bookstores to find some econs textbooks for some casual reading to improve my background on econs. i will also ask my dad to hire some jc school teacher so that everyweek he can come help me revise my econs for this 6mths.
my passion for reading. i realise i have super poor communication skills with gals. need to borrow or buy some books on tips as to improve my character as well as to know the dos and donts. i really really hope i can improve my own personal traits so that i can be a better person.
Last but not least, i will minimise my expenses this 6mths. Savings will be maximal and i hope i can achieve my target pretty soon. Seriously money is really powerful. It can change some1's life and it can triggers two parties' tensions. You'll try not to talk about money with friends, but truth is you know money is the solution. So from here i must be independant. I must thank god for giving me a well-to-do family since i'm still receiving pocket money. all the different bills are just too crazy to bear.

I choose that period is because its 2 weeks after my birthday and perhaps all the hoo-haas had died down. and bascially because i really have some more frens to meet. people like michelle who is super busy in SMU, my 2 besties (i still owe ki present) and of cuz the date is after zj birthday. MArcus is coming back on the 9th may. and kel has just left for taiwan. he will be back last week of may. when the date of isolation ends, it means xmas is near. of cuz alot of frens would have ORD-ed but i don't care. i hope by then there will be a class chalet:) then it will be time to meet the fresh yushu.

ok i promise i can still be contacted by sms. so if need to discuss the taiwan trip, pls feel free to sms me. no worries, this new resolution is just to show whether i can do it or not. and of cuz the goals are to be achieved. i love you people. take care alright

mahjong is the real deal!

2008-04-30T11:19:00.000+08:00

ok i found the perfect antidote to my bad habit of gambling on soccer.

it is playing mahjong!!! hahah its still considered betting but honestly my luck has been better the last few times i mahjong. so those who lack of ppl to play mahjong, do rem to give me a call.

i dun mind playing the price of $1,$2,$3,$5,$10,$20. yep this is the highest im willing to go. but usually friends like us do not play so big. Mahjong is the 'IN' thing right now. train your concentration, your alertness and your flexibility. it says that it makes your brain more active, to prevent rustiness.

So ytd i went ZX hse to play mahjong overnight. What i didn't expect is to see Andre, my 1st3mths OG mate. He is in the same camp (Arti) as ZX sia, omg the world is really small. lol. best thing is that i won the most, $23.60!!! LOL godlike sia.. so happy la.. But then this happiness is marred by the fact that Man Utd won Barcelona 1-0!!! ARGHHH!!!

ok, i'm qt sleepy now, only had 2 hrs of sleep last night. lol.. i really love mahjong. So fel be prepared to bring lotsa money!!! MWAHHH@!

class3 police conversion

2008-04-18T04:05:00.000+08:00

I went early in the morning for class 3 conversion juz now so that i can drive police cars..

But if im blogging this, you should noe i failed it. wah lan i super sad. hahah this feeling is like taking part in singapore idol and then become a reject. except driving police cars wun give u fame.

I really have no idea that actually it involves another round of police assessment. except now we dun call it traffic police test. we called it POLICE ASSESSMENT TEST. notice there is no longer the word traffic in it. so having nt drive for 3 mths, today is 17th & i passed on 18th Jan, i am super nervous cuz i cfm flop my manual driving since u noe manual needs actual constant practice and i had gt none. its not like exactly accelerate n brake like auto cars. but u can be easily deducted by poor control of gears and half-clutch.

I really can see that my this tester is super strict de.. he dun smile 1. so its a bad start. anw, we drive around old pa, upper thomson and also marymount road, towards bishan n back. he even brought me to those ulu roads where those landed property was and i had to do slope moving-off. oh and that was the only time my car die. cuz i nearly forget how to move off from slope. haha. so it rolled backwards. other than that i am ok.

SO coming back he asked me to park reverse into a small slot in between 2 cars. i took 7 tries. cuz it was my 1st time parking without poles and into such a challenging position. my dad has nvr let me park his car before. and thats also 1 bad thing to have a rich daddy. he wun let u experiment his branded car. so for 3 mths, i have only drive auto cars and nvr did i learn proper parking before. oh well, of cuz if u took 7 tries, it just shows how pro u are. i'm damn suay to be asked to park that slot unlike my fren who just parked headon into such a easy slot. haha goodness wad a nice tester i had.

so the verdict is i failed. and the main reasons is that i speed on the road and my parking cmi. hahah i guess i had tried to put in effort. i really din noe cant use gear 4 cuz i went up to 70km/h. he say i speed on wet conditions so thats 7 pts off. i really din noe that i cant travel up to 70km/h. Every other damn car was travelling so fast and i in a police car, can onli go up to 50km/h. so throw face. should warn me before hand that i should treat it as a traffic police test mah then i wun go so fast. other demerit points went to poor clutch ctrl n gear handling as well as failure to take safety. he say i overtake a guy then nvr give him enuf space. wad the... lol. so strict la. He asked me go practise more in a manual car. so i tell myself, there wun be a manual car for me to drive in anw. so its GG.

Oh and i think its really a bad day for me to take this assessment. one is that im nt prepared because i 3mths nvr touch a bloody manual car. two is that i felt so uncomfortable wearing boots to drive. so its like i keep exerting too much pressure on the accelerating pedal, so there is always this "booooorrrruuuuuummmmmmmm" sound that makes me even more nervous. oh well, thats life, you only have 1 chance, its either you make or break.

my ma'am say nvm its okay we will send u 4 conversion ok. but now i dun want drive police car le.. cuz i really cant find any manual car to practise my driving. so thats it, i wun get to drive a police car/van anymore. today is the 1st n last time. and i really learnt my lesson. of cuz i'm discouraged but then i hope i will learn frm this lesson.

Seducing Mr Perfect.

2008-04-13T04:52:00.000+08:00

I'm on duty once again, haha alright now the roster is getting better. work down here for 1 day in a week n the next day is off. The rest of the days must go back office though. HAHA, what is even better is that my shift is moving out of weekends! The next time i work will be on a friday, then will be thursday. Cuz now is 6 teams per week. You can go figure out urself why i say i'm moving out of weekends. but after 5 shifts more, it will be back to weekends. SIANZ!

So i just watched a movie titled "Seducing Mr PErfect" on crunchyroll. Wah i love this movie, never regretted at all. The story is touching and the ending though abrupt is funny. And guess what the male lead is super hot, has dreamy lips n eyes. SUPER PERFECT laa, cant believe in a story a guy like him will get ditched by a gal? So actually what does this show? It means sometimes even the most handsome guy is not compatible with the most pretty girl. And when you are already that damn hot, you'll still suffer defeat to another guy. But dun be mistaken that your nt good, its just that its not the right time 4 u yet. Oh well, nice solid movie on a boring and cold saturday noon.

OH YES!!! i remember sth now. THAT LIVERPOOL OUTMUSCLED ARSENAL IN CHAMPS LEAGUE!!! Whoooo!!! FEL DUN BE SAD>. I told you Torres more shuai4 than fabregas le. YOu don't believe. HAHA.

boring life

2008-04-07T01:38:00.000+08:00

Wah i've just realised my recent posts are super emo, but thats because there are alot of screwed-up persons around me.. Well, life is just super boring now. its mainly sleep, work, watch n bet soccer n gym. thats all. pathetic. i just cant force myself and sit down to read books or magazines.. duno why also.

I realised that friendster horoscope are damn zhun3... scary sia... like the day happenings really do reflect well on what the horoscope had claimed. like ytd, it says sth like just when you are about to give up hope on some1, a series of events happen and make you stop and think more about it. LOL fuck sia the wrong type of frens just make u keep thinking about stuff that u wanted to throw them away.

I am too hopeful or should i say over-optimistic about uni life? lol cant help but to think my life is going to be more happening soon. in a year and 3 mths time. i tell you all ppl in uni better watch out 4 me cuz im going to play hard n prey harder. ahhahaha

Don't feel like blogging le.. i got like 9.5more hrs to go till my shift ends.. boring sia...

calculative

2008-04-02T08:14:00.000+08:00

This time round i've made another mistake in office. Thats for being too calculative. In gist, i was just trying to claim back hours for the past 1mth of the deployment that burnt my countless weekends. Basically what i did was to send a email to my boss and i was scolded today for being so calculative. She thought my calculations was wrong. She thought i "ate" her. But never did she know that her maths was so lousy and that in a system of work morn, nite n off, the hours will be 0. since 3 working days is 8 x 3 = 24 and 2 days of shifts are 12 x 2 = 24 and i have wrote there + 4 + 4 - 8 respectively and it was 0(i wrote it there ok). It was only weekends thats why got so many hours. This shows that my weekends have been burnt alot of times. And basically why i have accumulated so many hours is that the shift system for the 1st few days is work DAILY and there are no OFF, so i can get to accumulate that kind of hours. Then she come saying "what if mr c n mr y come asking me for hours too?" she din realise they just join the deployment not so long ago and the roster then was alr "morn night off office". That kind of system will nvr accumulate any hours de laa. u tink its like mine? "morn morn morn and so on..." MY leave has been frozen for the past 1 mth and i was nvr allowed to take leave. I was told we have something called alternate days off. But the new roster has been up, so this thing doesn;t work anymore. She didn't realise every OFFICE days i have been reporting, but the others have alr taken leave. Funny right? the 1 that had worked for so long is not being sympathised. And the 1 who is going to ORD can be granted off. Oh well, this thing is so pissing and unfair la.

SO i know i had made the wrong move by being calculative but i was forced into it. I had my own reasons. They never bother to think for me. ITs because from my batch onwards, i was nt allowed to carry forward my leave thats why by this year i have to clear my 14 days. I had intentions to "ORD" earlier so that i can go find a job if nt i tink i will seriously need financial aid soon. But people just think why u wna so many leave 4 wat, i told them i was forced into it. I m the last batch to ORD among all my JC frens cuz i was unfit squad so need 2 years, thats y im trying means n ways to save up my leave. SO because of that, i've tried requesting for hours off. In the end i was disappointed (kind of expected anw) to hear that i have been calculative. Hello so my weekends have been burnt for NTH. Oh wait, i must say mayb they just want me to noe that its for SPF. oh well, so all these unclaimed hours must dedicate to the lovely force i'm serving. why must they make me hate MSK so much that my own personal life is ruined and yet i cannot claim any bloody leave right now? argh!!!

People just simply nvr think. i think i just have to submit to fate. so now i have to return to office being defeated & embarrassed. oh well i swear from this moment onwards, i'm not going to join in to anymore outings. totally no face seems my face bears the word 'calculative'. Small money i have never wanted back. but hours wise, thats impossible. its my life. my sleep. my deserved off. but hell no, i'm getting blacklisted for this incident. I don't care anymore. i'm not going to work so hard anymore. What piss me off is that other people in other divisions are also claiming thier off yet she thinks i'm the only 1 doing that. blehz. i wish i'm studying privately now, these type of ppl get protected and emphatised that they have exams and i swear my boss was super protective of him. What help to rotate? its just another way of saying "dun touch him". really super unfair. life is never fair. u tink police welfare alot oso? they CHOOSE people they like. those fuckers like me i get to work like slave.

I have to start wearing a mask now. A mask of hopelessness and facade. To embed my agonies from the world.

I must try not to be so calculative. But there are things u have to take back. and i mean by hook or by crook.

If you have a generous heart, remember never to be calculative. your boss dun like it. its just where exploitation begins.

irritating stuff

2008-03-30T14:21:00.000+08:00

Some irritating stuff i've encountered over the past weeks.

1) I think SAF people are egoistic,self-centred & rude. They deserved to be punched. Ok maybe thats a generalisation but that impression came from a LTC that is working with us police at our command post @ new phoenix park. So on 1 particular night when i'm doing my shift, my ma'am bought some drinks(Orange Julieus) back for us. Since its a rule not to bring any drinks inside the command post, she can only leave it outside. And guess what, without even having the slightest courteousy to ask, the SAF LO just took 1 drink n blatantly drink it. Hello, he must be nuts to think that our LOGS or Welfare act will cater such good food to him ah. crazy guy, no manners guy, such high rank oso without EQ, wah diao. so even when my ma'am confronted him, guess what this asshole said? "how much is it, i can pay for it" wah lao, tt reply totally pissed of my ma'am. Now now who can't pay that drink. if money is a solution to everything, then only the rich should be forgiven. fuck up SAF LTC. from mindef summore, just dun want to reveal ur name here. shame on you. oh btw, that drink is MINE! ASSHOLE!

2) Then there was my dad incident which really pisses me off. In gist, i was to pay for my handphone bills from last mth onwards just because last month my bill chalked up tp $106. Hello, i didn't mean it seriously. How am i supposed to know that my contract for student plan has been up last mth? Its only when i check my bill then i realise, my sms has dropped to 500 per mth and outgoing mins has also dropped. Thats explains the high amount reflected in the bill. But my dad bloody hell could nt uds that. Wah really very angry cuz i have nt change phone for so long and i have nvr waste my money on handphone gadgets or anthg then suddenly i have to pay for my own bill. People that scolded me why i put "fucking dad" in my msn nick should be hang. Cuz you do nt have financial burden to worry about so you do not noe the pain. MEans now i have my prudential savings plan, hp bills, scv bills to settle every mth. Really asshole. so i tell my mum that why i wna save my money now and choose to still get some pocket money from her is becuz i'm preparing for my uni expenses. IF my dad can be so CRUEL now, he can also nt pay for my uni fees halfway. So people would say my dad wun be so bad, comeon la its my DAD and i know him better than u do. He is nt that honourable as u think, and i do not respect him for alot of stuff that he has done except maybe to bring me up averagly. That is why i must save my money for UNI in case i kena pangseh again. People around me just couldn;t understand the fact that i'm onli doing btr than you cuz i live in a big house. But under this big house came with alot of miseries n pain. I'm really nt happy living in here. Dammit, i need more money. ARGHHHH! Fucked up dad.

3) This MSK operations is still on. I'm still deployed. and my April weekends are going to be burnt! Why cant i get to stand down? So irritating laa, been a month le, and i want 2 resume my normal life soon! Today i just wasted my saturday again with morning shift. Why must he run away when i'm serving my NS? grrr....

4) Liverpool 0-3 Man Utd. This is the worst match i've seen. Totally make me lose concentration when playing mahjong also. The ref should be killed. Asshole, give red card to pool player then anderson n ferdinand both escape yellow cards. wonder how much ferguson bribe the ref sia. Argh, stupid man utd better dun win epl title. i rather chelsea win.

I forget what i wna blog le, but then i'm too upset to blog anymore.

utterly disappointed

2008-03-20T14:11:00.000+08:00

Now i really understand why people need to handle under stress. cuz in the event of high pressure built-up, you can be the biggest bad ass, a total transformed character from the usual you. Its perhaps the most unfortunate for me to be the victim of such cruelty and merciless you.

Too bad i'm going to blog about this event cuz i'm utterly disappointed by the way you have conveyed your thoughts to me. So i shall call this colleague A. Of all the AOOs, the most respected person is you. But why must you be the one that makes me so disheartened? In gist, tml is the event for this A person so i have been granted permission from 1 of my bosses to reach the venue at the reporting time(11am), instead of going to office at 9am. The reason why i have requested for such priviledge is because i'm really tired out my this deployment schedule of the prolonged MSK operation. Thats why i have sincerely asked for this request since i really believe i need sufficient rest(the following day will be my morning shift again). Then this A guy msg me to tell me that tml we are heading down to the venue from office at 1030am, so i replied i was granted to go directly to the reporting place at 11am. Then, A called me and suddenly bursted out personal attacks on me saying i was shortchanging him. my mind was like in a blank and wtf did he talk about him nt shortchanging me and now i shortchange CI? I explained i was excused but he just couldn't accept the facts into his head. His reason was simple, that according to the duty roster, i'm supposed to report back to office tml. YES MR.A, i bloody hell know that, stop telling me that. Thats why i said i have alr explained to my boss with the knowledge that i'm supposed to be in office tml.

So Mr. A is like over-riding my boss decision and he was telling me he won't let me do that. After the tele conversation, i msg him to explain to him if he needs my help at office tml, he can kindly tell me and i'll be glad to b back at the office tml to help out. But throughout the conversation, he has never tell me anything related to that but instead choose to attack me personally. It just like the last event where he exposed another colleague saying how much the person has shortchanged him. Whoa seh, i totally feel so insulted laa. So i msg my boss to apologise just incase she thought i'm shortchanging her kindness and she told me she spoke to A for me and now i'm allowed to go to the venue straight tml at 11am. But i guess after this incident, i really lost most of the respect for him. Everytime i have helped him previously has been nt worth the effort come to think of it.

I guess tml will be a weird day since i will be seeing this A guy. the guy that said i shortchanged him. damn you.

i'm really super insulted you know.

Pissed

feedback

2008-03-18T14:23:00.000+08:00

My ns term has left 1 year. It Feels so good to know that you will ORD soon since the hardest time had went past. But it feels so bad to know that times flies so quickly. Really regret not studying last time in JC especially i rather feel like hitting the books now than to return back to command post for OPs Capture for MSK. Life is really meaningless now. So when i'm bored, i want to talk and i often get DAOED. Those reply 1 say i despo. ahhaha. ok laa i'm despo, but at least i nvr go clubbing right. You know its so easy to get gals, just have to drive my dad's car and offer a ride back home to a gal in a club n whooo you got it there.but thats not the girl i want. cuz i want decent gals. looks don't matter(yea, i really mean it. do not find fault with this statement. i'm sincere and it comes from the bottom of my heart when i type it.) So now any1 wna intro some decent girls to me?

So today i was at dinner with 2 colleagues when suddenly Director OPS, AC Wong joined us for dinner at our table. LOok, AC is super big rank alr and he is the head of my department so its quite cool that a boss of such status is willing to sit down and chat with us NSF. So he began asking us about how we feel about this whole operations. Starting of the conversation, i was super quiet cuz i shy mah. Then after that i began to toughen up so i decided to start asking him some of the common questions people will ask us. I think this is the type of boss that i really like working with nx time in the corporate world because he is willing to listen and offers his own pt of view rather than bosses who think he is super high rank and to him you're just a stone lying among the pebbles.

So he asked us a question which got us quite stuttered. He enquired where do we think he can be hiding right now since we have searched the trees n jungles yet still no positive trace of him. We can only say what normal people will say, maybe some1 is harbouring him or sth lidat. So people who have intelligence level higher than normal people and also read my blog, if you guys seriously have any idea where he can be hiding, pls leave a tag at my blog so that i can answer my boss. haha.. thanks alot!:)

ok i'm going to run tomorrow to make my tummy looks smaller. if nt the packs will nvr be revealed:P so yushu is going to train on his body. too bad he doesn't have any looks to complement. haizzz..

complacency

2008-03-10T06:03:00.000+08:00

MM Lee had said that this whole incident is a case of complacency. I do not want to give any comments about what he has said. Just that i really do not know when this incident will be over. I just pray hard to be back to the norm so that my life will be more meaningful. Can you just imagine that what if he really had escaped? If he returns 1 day, the damage will be more devastating. Thats what i really hope will never happen. I pray thee Singapore can still live up to its name of a safe country to dwell in.

The shift now has been confirmed to work 2 days and rest a day. So in every 3 weeks, both my weekends will definitely been burnt once. I had lots of things to moan about. Like not able to go gym, not able to play mahjong. Honestly, though the former activity might not be healthy, i rather be engaged in it than wasting time down here, rotting my life away. The concern is that i'm still far from completing my NS term.

Went down to NTU open house yesterday. Found out more stuff regarding my future studies. I think i'm sort of alr made up my mind on the university i'm enrolling in year 2009 August. I have already registered online and have sincerely requested my boss to be my appraiser for non-academic report since my academic side is not tt good. Oh well, i just hope i am given this chance to get into the double degree programme. So my 1st choice is Economics & Civil Engineering. Why civil is because, i have no interest in other streams of engine. Maybe i had a dad who do construction as career so kind of influence by him. Going into Civil, i know i can have the support n knowledge of my DAD to be relied on. Anyway, i realised though civil might not command high pay, at least the demand of this job will never diminished since new structures are built everyday. So with economics as my complementary degree, i can even move up the management ladder at an easier & faster pace.

But then i know the chance of me being accepted for this double degree programme is very slim.. Therefore i had made other plans in view of this negative situation. i had struggled with the decision between maritime studies & economics. But then from yesterday visit, i've learnt that i can still go up to biz from econs which is exactly what i want. 1 of the students told me that if u can score a G.P.A of at least 4.0, they will offer you biz as another major:) Maritime is an unknown industry to me, so i do not exactly know if the studies suit me just fine. But they always say you never know till you try, but then i don't want to waste my only chance trying in a industry that triggers debate over if its sunrise or sunset. Although i like to admit i did ahve interest in shipping industry but there is still an uncertainty floating infront of me, something that smothers my path. So my 2nd choice will be Economics while 3rd choice is MAritime studies with business major. At least i know there is a goal to work towards to for now.

Sorry guys to bore you with my thoughts. I know recently my posts have been mundane. But this will not have happened if i had worked hard in JC and the JI guy never ran away. Curse it. I promise to write sth new in my next post.

Anyway, just to sidetrack abit. Recently i visited Guardian for the purpose of finding new facial wash products so as to cure the oily pores/pimples on my face. So while i was browsing through the various pdts avaialble, a lady(those normal salesgal u will find promoting their pdts) approached me and asked me if i need a facial pdt. I showed some interest and i think she must have been elated to hit JACKPOT cuz she knew i will definitely buy what she is promoting. Anyway, she started commenting on my face, saying it was very bad. Gosh, can't she be more tactful with her words so as not to hurt my feelings?:P So she introduced me this Italy product that has a unique brandname. Before i actually read the manual on the box, i saw the price that made me hesitant. $49 -.- And original price is $55. I really do not feel like buying cuz i was very unwilling to spend such alot of money on a pdt i never even heard before. But then i guess since its true i really need a magical pdt to cure my face, i reluctantly agreed to the price. Now it makes the lady smiles more because she is going to earn commission! Anyway, my face is slightly better now, not that itchy nor dry anymore. But then i think it really will takes much more money n time for the whole face to be in good condition ever again.

5 more hours to go. Its my rest day tomorrow. Super shag now.

phq command post

2008-03-03T07:00:00.000+08:00

In my PHQ command post now.. and here i was blogging. I dun really know what to do anymore, so i figure blogging can pass time. Days are a bore to me recently, been doing the same thing over n over again. Been hearing funny stories, seeing incredible incident reports from member of public. I should call this routine an experience. Its not that often i'm here, beside so many big gunners and Minister of home affair talking about 1 common goal. Things have turn slightly better for the future as now i do not need to work everyday le. The schedule now is work 2 days rest 1 day. So tomorrow monday is my rest day. Rest day doesn't mean i stay at home for free, it just means i do not have to do this deployment for a day. I still hafta report to work tml, so at least i can wake up 1 hour later.

I really wonder how long this operations is going to last. So now i'm planning all my rest days.
hmmm.. lets see..

Monday (3rd March) .. going back tml so that i can go gym :)
Thursday (6th March).. taking leave so that i can have my beauty sleep @ home
Sunday (9th March).. play badminton and maybe go SMU open hse
Wednesday (12th March).. going to work so that i can gym.
Saturday (15th March).. and so on if this operation really drags more than a mth or so... its NUS open hse!

I have been contemplating what if i cant get my double degree in engine n econs @ NTU, then which sole faculty should i go.

For NUS, i will maybe try to appeal to biz.
For NTU, i am thinking either go maritime studies(under civil & environmental engine) or study econs.
I'm still exploring a 3rd option though, sth like mechanical engineering.
But most likely i will end up in NTU, have made up my mind that i should go NTU.

I really do not know what to type now. so i reckon i shall be random. i don't really have a very good impression of the nsi in the headquarters. Maybe i'm childish in my thinkings or wat, but i just think that sometimes people can really be super bossy. So normally people just love to play by ranks. Why can't they just go by the simple rule of compassion, sincerity & politeness? You're asking a favour from us juniors to do work for you, so pls take note of the fact that we are actually helping you. Please at least have the basic manners to ask respectfully even though we are not as big-shot as you. I really dno what OCT course had taught them, but certainly they must have been brain-washed by the fact that they are the elites. Singing all those propaganda songs that are in tune with they are the best, c'mon laa, You're not the best so stop dreaming n wake up to reality. Doesn't the chinese phrasing ever rang thru ur head reminding you braggarts that clever will be defeated by your own cleverness?

I had a chat with my dad's friend's wife yesterday. cuz basically ytd nite, for apparently-no-reason, my dad invited alot of people to eat buffet-styled dinner at home. So i was home late becuz i had deployment as usual. So while i was eating with my sister and her bf, the auntie came over and she say she wna talk to me. She keeps telling me that i "身在福中不知福" so i was trying to reason out to her that its not the case where she has described. But then my sis's bf was on her side, saying i was very fortunate. Wah lao, no1 will ever believe that i actually do not mind staying in HDB flat. Its really true ok, i really had no qualms about a smaller space because eventually as long as you work hard, it will still take you to where you want to be. Maybe why they love to emphasize about me being fortunate is because i do not have to worry the lack of capital for any stuff needed to persue our education. Haiz, sometimes once perceptions are formed, its super hard to change people's mentality.

Guess what, while i was typing the previous paragraph, i inevitably doze off, and unluckily let an officer catch me closing my eye.

I must be that damn tired. Cuz i really feel like sleeping soon. 5 more hours to go. my life is ticking away mercilessly at the expense of my youth.

stupid.retard.terrorist

2008-02-29T14:28:00.000+08:00

Guess what, i'm so suay to be deployed for this fucking retard terrorist who ran away. So now i'm on daily shift from 8am to 8pm till he get caught. my job is to man all the cctv, now i know where are all the hidden cctv le-.- thats not a gd thing tho. cuz my weekends are burnt. my mahjong session, my badminton session all vanished in a twinkling of the eye. Thanks to this ji leader who can duno-how-manage-to-run-away without getting noticed. The police also din say how it happen laa, i think they are hiding sth.

So when i'm deployed, i decided to msg a few of my frens. ok i admit i was really bored and the only thing i had with me is my handphone. i'm at basement 5 still gt FULL reception, thats cool right? ok so as usual the few who prefered to dao. but still got few who are willing to pei me chat. abig thank you to those nice samaritians. I've learnt my lesson. I shall bring a book to read tml cuz most of the time the cctv reflected traffic flow which to me is damn boring.

Police is super last min, cuz i am supposed to report for duty when the call is made to me at ard 2pm. No warnings de, just want u to be there then u must be there tt kind. oh well, who ask me to be in operations dept. So this is the 1st time i'm in the cell (not the prison kind), and its quite funny to see some interesting things happen. Like for example, alot of people were caught cuz public started calling 999 to police saying they see some 1 like the terrorist loitering suspiciously around. so for those criminals who choose to lay their hands these few days, you must be tt stupid. Eh but i pity the malay the most, cus the terrorist really look like typical malay laa, so suay suay will attract public attention.

oh btw, i din noe behind sji gt 1 detention centre. and i din noe there is a graveyard there. until today when i saw the activities by the various police movements on the screen. lol, ok singapore still got qt a bit to be explore. but i think today scgs must have been the safest place to be on earth cuz alot SOC ppl armed with guns cordoned the entire school. oh well, the terrorist escaped ytd nite. i doubt he still lurking around in whitley and mount pleasant road leh.. must have make his way to singapore borders. thinking of way to escape singapore.

I really hope god can help singapore police as well as army(marcus was complaning his unit oso deployed) for this incident. I want the stupid terrorist to be caught asap. Do he know becuz of him, alot of people's precious time are wasted?

Stupid JI, i also dun wna blog about you. but i cant help it. you just been the highlight of my life these few days. argh.

decision making

2008-02-26T13:49:00.000+08:00

Today i was surfing ntu website, just to get more idea on which is the perfect uni for me. Its either ntu or nus. definitely nt smu, cuz town is definitely too far away, and i have no car anyway.

In terms of academics, both are equally good.
In terms of gals, i totally have no idea.
In terms of hall life, ntu seems better.
In terms of cca, ntu looks sharper.
In terms of history, nus pawns ntu.

But what caught my attention is the new double degree ntu offers. That lasts 5 yrs long. lol. Engineering & Economics. So i was thinking for awhile, if this double degree really can get me to where i want to go. You see, i have always been interested in business. But i know terribly that i can't get into business with my intolerable results. So this course offers core modules such as "communication skills, HR management & Engineering n society" Its really quite good since all along i wanted to get a degree in HR management. So by having this complementary combi, it will train me to be an engineer with economics mentality, who is aBLE to apply scarcity concepts to building good structures. So that will eventually lead me to where i can go. Setback is that i drop economics in j2. so i mite haf a hard time catching up. OH, and i'm not an engineering type of student, but that can start with good physics skills by re-reading them again IF & only IF i'm selected for this double-degree.

Considering i really go this course, i will end up working onli at age 26 or 27, and that according to fel is lao ah pei. terrible la she, keep laughing at me. But i believe ntu can offer me good attachments so i can have some secured future with some companies provided i prove my worth. Really leh, need to mug hard n play hard. Cuz part of me go uni is to enjoy hall life that i like. i really do like anw, fel's hall gt aircon aND That attracts me.

So what if i dun get business in nus or this double-degree at ntu? then i'm as good as gone. I've been deliberating whether to go into education line by joining fass or science fac, but then i guess its nt my cup of tea for future. I just enjoy part-time tuitioning or relief teaching but definitely nt as my career. so thats out. so where should i really go? oh gosh, i just need a lifeline from god this year.

Plsplspls, give me what i want and i will promise to work hard. i swear i will. work hard. play hard.

I wonder if god can hear my prayers. usually i know i did say i rather be free-thinker n trust myself. but sometimes just need some mental encouragement from the mighty above me.

I have given up going nus becuz of ppl. that is stupid. not worth the effort. for some1 who DOESN'T WANT TO GIVE U A CHANCE CUZ SHE LISTEN TO THE WRONG FREN, its damn dumb. I swear i'm going to find a better gal nx time. some1 that really worth my attention and thoughts.

I realise pretty does not mean she's good. pretty is just pretty outside. nice to watch. but then what matters most is to be pretty at heart. i have been blinded for 2 years. i'm not going to marry a vase. I'm going to marry the flower that blossom in my heart.

stayover @ NTU

2008-02-24T13:20:00.000+08:00

So yesterday went over to fel's hall stayover. we play mahjong. got mitchell fel n mitch's friend. and the tiles were super small. Very not used to it, quite fun though no money is used. Now then i know mitch has really super bad ideas for dares as penalty. She wanted me to go pose and ask for more servings from the stall auntie. I think deep @ night is the time to be with ur frends cuz thats the time where ppl can get really crappy...and things get really funny at times.

oh well, i didn't feel good the whole night. maybe cuz i was staring unintentionally into the wallpaper of fel's laptop:P it just brings back bad memories.

and fel, if you are reading this, pls send me the photo that we took with the towering tiles. haha.

but anw conclusion is that air-con hall is goooooooddd. i think i will go ntu.

sometimes i just hate it when you make me feel so bad and guilty. not going doesnt means not supporting you. its just that i do want to stay truth to myself. supporting an activity which i really have no interest in just nt my cup of tea. but i still want you to know i really hope you will do well and i know you will.

oh mcfadden just score a beautiful freekick against arsenal. i've called fel and there she hang up the call on me. so sad right.

sgt

2008-02-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

Yes, i'm going to be promoted to SGT soon, which means an increase of $250 from current pay. Thats' alot sia, considering we are just in NS, but money is nvr enough. When u think of the saying"the rich gets richer, the poor gets poorer", its really true. How do people become rich? They save. How do people become richer? Its not they save more ok. Saving so much will nt get u anywhere. Its because they have the basic capital/funds to invest in long-term projects like buying of condos and stocks. Of course, nt all investments will reap profit. So its boils down to the simple fact. They must be wise. When they started saving from the young, they are already considered wise ppl who know how to plan for the future, so possibilty of them investing in the right stuff is high.

But there are people around us who have "free-flow" of income, cuz they are born in a rich family. These people are called lucky. But luck will end 1 day if they do not know how to control themselves. Maybe not now, but in the future. I do not know where do i entirely stands. I am born in a well-to-do family. I still gets pocket money now. But i will pay them back in the future. When i starts working after graduating from uni thats it. But people will still say of cuz work must pay them back laa. Common sense. Think of it, once u have a family, ur mentaily will definitely change. If u r a moderate income earner, it will not be enough for u to support ur family while giving $300 to parents a mth. Not many people can sacrifice.

I will. Cuz i really owe my mother too much. Her hand now is aching real badly. And she still hand wash my clothes. She doesn't believe in washing machine. And eveytime i just talk back to her rudely because i cant stand her consistent nagging. So i'm an ass who takes things for granted.

Because of that, i no longer wants a car from my parents. I believe in "buying what is within ur capability". Of cuz honestly i swear i'm still terribly angry that my parents lie to me abt getting me a car when i passed. But no use looking back. I have a family that only believes in punishment n nt rewards.

But of cuz no car indirectly means u cant chase pretty gals. Ok thats a superficial thought. Theres still couples in this world that get tgt nt because 1 party is super rich. Cars are luxuries, they are just an additional BONUS for you to win a gal heart. I hope i'm on the right track. Cuz i want to prove it to those rich bastards out there that are so rich and so snobbish. If gals arent that materialistic too...

Of cuz i'm considered qt rich. Because i SAVED. I just hate ppl who know you are rich n become closer to you. Ya money speaks the loudest, but so what none of them are true frens. If only 1 day a crisis occured that make u realise who are true to you, by then u will regret. I will laugh. The feeling of being make use of is fuck up. of cuz i dun mind if u owe me money laa, as long as u will return when i'm in need. I've got a colleague who lent his brother 10k, but up to now, his brother onli returned $400/- And did not want to pay back anymore. See, even own family member oso wna cheat. So how do u expect to believe in ur frens when you are unsure if you were not twice bitten.

I am regretting. for not studying in JC. So i cant get into the faculty i want. I'm going to face a big problem. So now i must tell myself once i settled on the uni n fac this year, i must start learning hard to prepare for uni. Cuz uni is going to be very busy. I must be active in hall activities and cca, as well to cope with the stressful influx of knowledge. Of cuz its a must that i still enjoy life!

I've really stopped betting le. I've lost a total of $1250 on soccer bets in this life. I swear it will end here. Of cuz i'm heart pain. But nevertheless, at least i realise the danger of it when i'm still young. Because i believe if i have more money, i will place bigger. Cuz my spending power is big.

Ok, i have muster enough courage to blog this, so think through peep!

funny taxi driver

2008-02-14T15:59:00.000+08:00

gosh my sis passed her virus to me/. so now i'm coughing like mad dog.

oh well MC on vday, feels good.

So i took a cab to NUH myself and back. what is interesting was that the journey back in the taxi ended with a story. So we reached the gate of my hse. then i paid the money. quite alright $10.20 considering we travelled qt long distance. Then the driver told me he has 2 questions for me. 1 is that how much is the hse here. so i said around 1.7mil. Then the driver asked me the 2nd question. Do i have any friends living in Bt Panjang Sejar Road? After i answered yes, he told me a story. He said some days back, 2 teenagers (around my age) boarded his cab at the busstop opp my house. So after they arrived at the destination, the 2 asked the driver to stop the cab. And the 2 just open the 2 backdoors and ran away. He said he was not angry if the 2 have been honest with him. Then i asked him why he do not want to report this incident at BP NPC. He said its a small issue. Nice driver, but then so sorry my frens that come my hse do not leave at the said location. The 2 kids must be broke after losing mahjong.lol.

Today i spend my day at SDC. stood 9hrs just 2 guard the useless banners. argh, really damn sianz. But i gope alot of stuff. haha. including the tee im wearing now.

The cough syrup i took will make me giddy. I think i must go sleep soon.

Enjoy couples.

my friendster horoscope says "Totally flirtatious energy is sweeping into your life. It'll help you have fun."

i think that applies only in my dreams, under the dosage of medicine.

swimming

2008-02-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

ok i have decided to lead a healthy lifestyle.

But i think heaven does not think i'm disciplined enough to carry out that strict regime. i rushed cab over to delta swimming complex, in the end there were dark clouds all over. After i had zealously dug out my coins for the entrance fee, rain began to pour. and pelter all over.. but i still went to swim. cuz guys should nt be scared of the rain. i swim the 1st 2 laps, refreshing. the next 2, tiring. its like the legs very cramp, excruciating pAIn coming within. That was symptons of rustiness, of unfitness, of not doing enough warm up exercises b4 jumping in2 the pool.

Pretty soon, the stupid lifeguards(wna slack) called me up with a bloody whistle although there was no lightning. so my idea of swimming 50 laps, doing sun-tanning was spoilt by the transition of weather. so after CNY, i'm going to play badminton! yes, i'm going to be healthy. And i want the definition in my body.

I just hate the lump of belly sticking out in my body whenever i sit down.

Chinese new year is coming. i think its time to prepare some mandarin oranges to prepare for the replenishment of my money. haha, any1 wna invite me over?=P

lessons & reality

2008-01-31T10:05:00.000+08:00

I've made a terrible mistake in office today. But it was nt intentional. The "出发点" was good but just that the consequences were far more devastating than what you can imagine. So the lesson learnt is that if your rank is not there, do not "假历害" because a small man like me bears no significance. So pls follow the protocol and do not "打抱不平" even though injustice has been done.

This resembles another problem of mine. like perhaps in family matters. You see, what you say will not hit the parents in the head. In their eyes, you are considered nothing. They have vast experiences and will not heed anything reasonable from us. So you should also follow protocol when dealing with difficult parents. Pls approach some1 senior (as old as your parents, good bets are your parents' friends), get their consent and then discuss with your parents. So at least you have some backings.

Whether is it in corporate world or family tree, pls remember to "follow protocol". thats 1 lesson learnt for me. You will never be right unless you have proper backups (your cc & bcc).

will continue at home ltr. tada!

cut the apron string

2008-01-28T13:33:00.000+08:00

oh man, i can't wait to get out of reliance of parents. i want to cut the apron string fast. but i know i still need their financial backup in uni. Gosh, in every arguments i made, almost all i lost cuz they like to end the discussion that i owe them alot of money from birth till now. Even if i sound correct or reasonable, i will still be barred from a victorious triumph.

i dun unds why gals like to wear so low cut, its like once they start bending downwards, automatically guys' attentions will glue to that scene. argh, not that its an enjoyable sight to me, but i see no point in letting yourself to be victims of the many eyes out there. so on sat night i was with marcus n yuliang at amk entertainment centre playing pool at the highest level. so there was this scene of 2 gals that are playing pool 1 floor below us and that sight was truly disgusting.

haha i receive nus letter alr, im going to reapply to business then fass then science fac. i want to stay in hall. any1 interested to share rm with me in nus? pls let me know. ty.

been super bz in office recently due to alot of events coming up. i'm been in a super foul mood recently becuz i dun like certain ppl in my office. why must it be that i'm the 1 to come in2 your mind n kena called to do this or that when u have errands to run? super angry sia. i just cant stand ppl who nvr do anything n are so pretentious that they are so bz with their jobscope. bullshit.

so there was this educational story in corporate world. that a turkey was busy searching his brains for ways to climb up a tree and perch on the top of the branch like normal birds. so in comes a bull and it just shitted next to the turkey. the turkey shared its burden with the bull and the bull had a solution. it asked the turkey to nibble on some of the shit it just passed to get the energy to climb 2 the top of the tree. so slowly the turkey eat n climb n at last it arrived at its destination. A hunter nt far away saw the turkey and shot it down.

Moral of Story: Bullshit can get you to top, but it can also cause your downfall.

i just came home from town and was feeling so sick. just took some pills, hopefully tml is alright. super bad running nose and a sorethroat. haha, i think fel passed her virus to me alr. sianz.. now ppl will think i geng for tml if i go on mc...

freedom to driving!

2008-01-21T15:40:00.000+08:00

ahaha i passed my traffic police test on my 1st attempt. wasnt an enjoyable thing to be in, make me super nervous.

so now i have license le.. all i need now is a damn car to drive.

test drive my dad's auto lexus car, qt scary leh.. nt used to it. then he aso like scare dis scare tt, v irritating sia.

for those who want tips to passing tp, my advice is you better wear a skirt(as short as possible) for the test. nt saying the testers are all lao di ko. bt then, i've made an observation. got 16 candidates who took the test at the same time as me. out of the 16, 7 are gals. and amazingly, all 7 gals passed the test. onli 4 out of 9 guys pass. lol.

oh well, thank you to all the gods that helped me.

handling difficult people

2008-01-11T12:28:00.000+08:00

Today is the 1st day of my 2days long workshop @ tekka mall. i rather i'm attending "handling difficult women" than "handling difficult people" cuz women are the more complicated gender.

The course contents is nt that bad, it eekes out a discussion on "what make people angry/hostile" and what are the type of difficult customers etc. qt interesting cuz in life there's bound to have alot of difficult people we will encounter. then theres this question about why these ppl have to be difficult.

4 reasons :-

they want what they want
they want help
they want choices
they want to be acknowledged

So the discussion went on and we were talking abt nt falling into the traps of difficult people. so here comes the choice of words. For example, when u encounter them, do not use words like "I" or "we", this shows you're pretty defensive about urself, and thats nt good. A pity i fall into this category. When we start using words like "they" or "you", it means you're counter-attacking. Both methods are wrong cuz they mite lead to a heated argument and embarrassment which we do no act want. so the best way to avoid this trap is to twist the situation into a non-directional way. In gist, do not pin-point to anyl. Once difficult people are caught by surprise, and ur able to tackle ur way past directly, they wun be difficult anymore! :)

And by then we have a lil food 4 thoughts exercise. The speaker made us write down what makes us angry. ok so im suppose to pen down what actually makes me angry. Here are what i act write:-

prolonged nagging
excuses given by gals
hypocritism
inconsiderate ppl
betrayal

Haha, the first 2 are what really piss me off sia. i shall end here now, tml is the 2nd day of the course, will update more ok.

betrayal of trust

2008-01-10T14:21:00.000+08:00

i just visited some1 blog but cant help feeling qt emo abt it.

I hope i wasnt thinking too much, but i can sense there is truth in it.

Its like few months back, the closeness is still there, the tide is still strong. im happy to be your friend. but some incidents just prove otherwise. the stan char thingy still breezes thru my mind. it doesnt feels good.

i want to ask why. but i know the obvious. there is absolutely no replacement. and there is no displacement. the unity is there, the biasness is there. other than that, im just any normal guy under ur charge.

yuliang juz told me he wna find a wife that is aso his best fren so they could talk abt anything under the sun. haha i tink qt hard cuz couple norm will haf secrets they wun share w each other. ok its random..

i guess uni will haf more this type of things la. i guess we haf to deal with difficult people. thats y tml im going on a course at tekka mall called 'handling difficult people' .

summation of this entry. betrayal of trust.

new year 2008

2008-01-07T05:24:00.000+08:00

NSPI CALEB CHAI can you stop reading my blog in office nts? LOL dun tink i din catch u hor.. just that i nvr say only.. evil (X

Hello 2008, byebye 2007!

2007 was a bad year for alot of ppl i guess, emotional restrains, personal conflicts, everchanging temperaments in terms of the social and economic factors... its just isn't the year i will want to be. This year i will hit 20, i'm old? 0.o considering i wasn't mature enuf to be call independant, i guess my heart is still young afterall.

i wouldn't want to talk about 2007 anyway, i have offended alot of ppl, who cares, but i noe i still care. whether is it a loss to me or to them, thats hard to say. but 1 thing i still have to emphasize is that i really din mean it in most cases. if i have the chance, i will not choose to turn things around. i guess i have to move on and hopefully at the end of the day, they know its their mistakes too and not just mine.

2008 is going to be a boring year for me unless i can make full use of it.
I have quit gambling on soccer, the reason is i have lost enough. but thats ok, the loss is nt impt to me, its just that i realise the side-effects are really there if you are addicted to gambling. which i dun want the case to be. so now officially i am clear of the 4 sins:gamble,drink,flirt and smoke. but then i still gamble abit like ytd, its my biggest mahjong win in my life. we only play 20,40cents increment. yet i still can chalk up t0 $60 win. hmm, luck good thats why. so very sorry to zhiyuan n zhongxian since the $60 came frm them. oh well in gamble, whats there to sorry about.

I've just attended a course on "working towards a better partnership at SPRING singapore(bt merah there), its quite a gd course. as in the activities we did are constructive. So i've learnt alot of body language thingys and their different interpretations. qt fun actually, get to know a few ppl too. what is the main upset was that on friday when i went to course, i actually forget to bring my hp. the fact that i've only realised it when the bus i board was aleady 6busstops away make me super frantic. hp so impt, how can i forget, lol. so i alight from the bus, took a cab to my hse take my hp, then make my way to the bt merah area.

I din noe what is the recent changes to the taxi fares except the 35% during peak hour is known to me and perhaps the $2.80 starting fees. So i was eyeing the fare suspiciously at the back of the cab. I din noe now change to 20cents increment. for 330m or less. for every 45sec or less of waiting time also 20cents increment. I only knew this when i ask my fellow nsf in office to help me check. Dulan so my fare add up to a total whooping of $22. Btw during the journey, i saw a brown merc nearly known down a lady just because he din stop at the zebra crossing at the alexandra exit there. so i took down his car number, and i shall see where's the correct avenue to go to summon him. idiotc driver, car big then he thinks he owns the road.

Conclusion is that taxi sucks nowadays cuz the fare super high. and that i can nvr live W/O my handphone lol. mainly becuz that nite i meeting hx at vivo, so need to communicate since i know she will be late!=p anway, went to shop around, watch national treausre(qt nice), eat at Terra, ok the food nt worth the price. I bought an informal blazer from ebase(50% off still costs $49.50 sia). but still quite nice sia.. maybe ltr go town buy more. overall muz thanks her for meeting up cus she gt bf, and she isn;t like typical ppl that will say bf will ahve wrong impressions or wat. lol. ok la if u throw the qn at me if i wna let me gf to go alone w another guy, i will say its up to the gal to decide. i wun control her life or anything. but just dun keep going out laa, once in a while is fine for me.

i will stop blogging nw. will write more on the next entry. lol. 2008 is just the beginning.

still pondering over which uni n fac to go. i say i wna be teacher in maths.
so its either ntu maths n sci fac or nus sci fac. but i dun wna see certain ppl in nus sci. so maybe i go nus fass. hahah.. dno la.. slowly decide lor..

egoistic

2008-01-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

cheryl said i'm egoistic.

she's right. i have offended alot of the fairer sex because i'm what she said.

i have to change.

i'm sorry

xmas party.

2007-12-31T01:27:00.000+08:00

No la james u dun have to feel guilty. Honestly i really hates cleaning up. But when there is no choice, still have to do it no matter how mah. But then the party was ok leh, cuz yuliang n zhijun really helped alot. so heng my parents nvr say anything.

Only the fact that my mother say the wok nvr scrub properly! hahaha yuliang do u hear that?

so suay the host had gastric pain ytd and vomitted 3 times and cant join most of the activities. even had to go see doctor when every1 was enjoying away. but nvm la, i'm ok now. thankx for all the smses people. very very nice of u all to reply.

this yr xmas party alot of ppl sia. super crowded. like no place to let them sit leh. oso nth to let them do, i still figuring how to use karaoke system. maybe if gt chnace muz buy a pool table to put at hm le:)

i think khainam wore the most seh attire. like prom king.
i think ZHIjun become prettier.
i think yuenling become qt ladylike le.
i think yuliang still the best. my sis's bf said he is the best too.
i think prak is the most polite guest. he even went up n find me n greet me n my sis's bf b4 going off.
i think ling yi is qt pretty (i nvr see this senior b4)
i think ms chen become qt motherly le.
i think james is very direct. just kidding. he say i gt alot of pimples. hahahahah true la, i still finding a cure for my face. can you dun remind me of my pimples?!!!!

i still have to apologise to zhijun for what had happened. i think hanyong wna kill me le. you see, she is so angry till she din't want to reply my 2 sms. haiz. nvm

hui xian & mitch 4eva pangseh. lollol.. nvr see u 2 at any outing 1 leh:P

i have thot for the perfect description to narrate guys n gals.
--> Guys are full of crap while Gals are full of excuses.

i going to haf my driving test soon. wish me luck. i need a car badly.

love hurts

2007-12-25T15:09:00.000+08:00

when a relationship breaks, some ppl will fall. others will shrug it off.

Fallen people are always the more-faithful type of people while nonchalent people are always the more playful type of nature. I always believe love brings you the gr8test strength within. whether is it negative or positive, it all really depends on ppl and how they get over it. some choose to escape reality, some still stuck in it.

why i choose to write so much is because i'm really surprised he actually took up the habit of "lung exercising". Is sad the reason to do it? i really dno, but he really changed alot. but i do wish him well. afterall, such catastrophic ending is definitely hard to accept. i have no right to criticise people. i myself isnt that holy anw.

Of all my frens, i still think yuliang is the best. nt as in best of fren, but best in everything. you see, he is best in studies, best in manners, best in filial piety, best in character and best in discipline. super independant person. but sometimes jealous ppl will say nerd or mother boy. I dun agree la, alot of people think that we must act cool now, we must possess alot of materialistic stuff (it sounds like my type) then we are considered "IN". whats so in when we will end up with nth? I'm proud of him because he is the only guy that volunteer to help me out.The guy that can think for himself.

James do not want to host this xmas party becuz he has no1 to help him tidy up, reason is the maid is away. I do not blame him, cuz partly i feel the same as him. Especially last yr bbq has left my parents w super bad impression cuz no1 bother to help with the bbq pit. I'm not yuliang who will do everything myself, so naturally my parents will kaobei me becuz i'm too lazy to do the cleaning up of mess left behind. If i'm yuliang, my parents will nt mind the mess cuz they will have faith that i will clean up. But right nw, i'm yushu and i hate cleaning up. so you get the picture? i'm very thankful yuliang has volunteer to help me do the cleaning of toilet (where i'm been using) by coming early. Thanks goodness got some1 to help. i managed to convince my dad to let me host this yr xmas party agn.

My parents are super traditional. They believe in "you must be responsible for everything you do" and they always carry it out. so my growing up was always been this way. bt i still haven learn yet. so i'm useless still. If i have learnt, i will be like yuliang. i will nt be so pampered. i will be responsible for my own actions. Yet right now, i'm walking on thin ropes. I still haven grow up yet. I'm still very fuck up. I still am so self-centred. why have i always think of myself and not for others? I want to enjoy but i do not want to put in any effort.

most of my frens are like me. but they are who they are. they choose their own destiny. I really think i' wasting my life away.

One more eg is that ytd we went kelvin hse. so for dnr, kelvin yuliang n marcus do the cooking. and i'm in the room playing dota. see i'm so useless. then i can only offer my stomach. after the dnr, marcus n yuliang do the washing up agn. and i end up watching them again. see, i'm super useless, why do i still exist in this world?

stupid yushu
worthless yushu
useless yushu

CAN YOU JUST BLOODY GROW UP?

19yrs alr. yet nth productive has been done. felt like crying

MRT sightings

2007-12-19T09:44:00.000+08:00

Whoo, i realised my blog is so dead la. No1 been reading and no1 been tagging :( So sadd. Dammit, where has all my loyal readers gone?

Despite of this setback, i'm still going to update my blog.

For example, telling you guys about some interesting MRT sightings i made. The first will be "Have you all ever get slapped in the face for being considerate/kind?" Thats what happened to this lady. So it goes like this. A passenger has just got off her seat to alight from the train. So the lady infront of the seat saw this old woman and called out to her, offering the latter a seat. But to my surprise, the old woman just ignored the lady and did not even reply. How rude can old people get? Got seat still want to choose sia. This is terrible. Old people always complain younger generations do not want to give them seats. But this particular old person just shows more than that. I'm so utterly disgusted.

Moral of story:Do not offer seats to old people.

The second sighting is that everytime during peak hour the MRT will be super crowded, especially the time when i go to work daily. So i usually will have a seat when i board the train at Choa Chu Kang. By the Bishan stop, the train will be flooded. So when i alight at Novena, i can sense alot of hungry people eyeing my seat@! Some are like hoping the others wun want to sit so they can rush to have the seat for themselves. If every1 does the same thing, you can expect 1min of anxiety n tension whereby people waiting for each other to make the 1st move.

Moral of story: Allocate your seat to the person you want him/her to have the seat so as not to create unnecessary tension.

MRT has alot of funny things happening daily.

Gosh its time to go home. Shall end here then.

pimples

2007-12-18T07:53:00.000+08:00

Gosh, i cant believe it.. Liverpool lost to man utd again? That goal from tevez was super ugly. but it just shows that liverpool made an error in defense once again. haiz. Gerrard was quite annoymous that night, anderson was all over him. But i'm quite impressed with riise for guarding ronaldo. The trio of Ronaldo, Tevez and Rooney was pretty much silent, so it just shows Liverpool deserves to win more. Sometimes, you just have to pray for more luck. Manutd managed to clear 2 goals off the line in the nick of time. But benayoun did not stop Tevez from deflecting the ball in. I agree with what the commentator said. He mentioned Benayoun was lazing in the backline, if he had moved forward, Tevez would have been ruled offside. The goal would nt be counted then. Big match comes with big pressure, i guess no1 should be blame ba. Hopefully Liverpool can do the good at Old Trafford in the match up to come. Best chance will be on Rooney to secure their win, but he missed it. The most pressuring chance will be on Gerrard to score the equalising freekick in the extra mins, but then the shot skinned the roof of the net. Thats it, game over, lost 2 consecutive league matches in EPL. Title chance faded, but still got hope.

Wah, i recently has pimples outbreak. Now i hate my face. Gosh, i looked like pokey. LOL, its really disgusting to have so many small red dots on your face. Arghh, how come suddenly tio ah. I don't think its the rainy season. I don't sweat much leh. I think i know why. I drink lesser water now. And i don't sleep much now. Those healthcare officers will tell you sufficient amount of sleep can make your face more radiant and smooth from acne. Now i uds why. Ok i shall sleep more now. I need my beauty sleep. MAybe thats where 'beauty sleep' comes from. makes you look more attractive. haha. I'm a victim of commercial advertisement. I saw the advertisement on OXY facial wash products and i went to get it. My friend just told me OXY pdts have high PH so may nt be suitable. Hopefully it wun have side-effect on me, if nt wo3 jiu4 mei2 lian3 jian4 ren2 le. hahahah

Ok, so they say xmas party at my hse. But honestly i still cant cfm leh. Cuz my dad still dulan with me with last yr matters, that i din wash the bbq pit after the bbq the night b4. Still trying to convince dad this yr no bbq, so hopefully it works. but then i have to do some spring-cleaning on my 2nd floor b4 i can ask dad for any requests. So i have invited Yuliang over to my hse to help me tidy. Intended to wash the toilet with him, but i feel bad cuz where got me the host ask guest to wash toilet since the guests are going to be there for a day? See how la, asking him over is just to make me stop using my comp to play. He play maple and i can do my self-cleaning which is a good distraction 4 me to tidy up my place.

i want to go xmas shopping soon.

liverpool disappointing match.

2007-12-09T19:11:00.000+08:00

ccb, i have never seen such a disappointing performance before. reading 3-1 liverpool. yes you nvr read wrongly.

fuck the referee, fuck benitez, fuck hobbs.

firstly, the dumb referee shld be sacked. award penalty to reading outside the box. never give liverpool penalty. make dumb decisions. worse then rob styles.

secondly, i dno why benitez field such a horrendous lineup. voronin playing on the left wing? i just hate sissoko. whenever he play liverpool either lose or draw. cant believe it man, voronin sux laa, shld sell him off in the nx transfer window. its funny to play mascherano n sissoko tgt. the midfield is terrible today

thirdly, benitez withdraw gerrard n torres for kewell n babel. maybe he wna rest them for champ league make-or-break match. but then it sure looks lke he surrender the 1st league defeat this season. dulan

fourthly, liverpool damn suay. hit woodwork 2 times alr. i dno wad to say, nt their day nt my day. argh.

last but nt least, i tink hobbs really sux, if you think hyypia score enuf own goals, i think the defence today is super leaky with hobbs ard, summore he miss an open goal leh.. argh..

what a maTch, if liverpool lose marseille, then its GG time.

fuck it.

ntu

2007-12-05T15:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went NTU to see Pan Wei Bo school concert. Qt interesting laa, he super pro at rapping and dancing. gosh, if i'm lke him, i tink i wld be surrounded by gals liao. Must thank my twin for giving me the ticket for the concert. The concert is a new experience for me, cuz its nt my type to go see artistie perform. From the concert, i've learnt 2 things in NTU students.

1) China scholars super hiong and kiasu.
2) There wasn't much chio bu ard.. :(

LOL, srry laa bt i tink i more inclined to see if NTU really owns NUS in terms of pretty faces raher than seeing Wilbur perform. So my end of day conclusion: terrible.. hahahah pls dun kill me.. perhaps chio bus dun go for concerts 1, they go havoc outside rather than coming back school mah.. maybe thats why..

After the concert, i met up with FEL! hahaha, she forever sleeping 1. then give me directions to her dorm cuz she dun want climb the slope. So i try navigating my way to where she is, it just remind me of tchs days, so many stairs, so many inclined slopes, so many steps to take. Exhausted! Hahah, sorry ar im nt in army, so i dun have much perseverance. I went to her dorm. Like condo like tt, so nice. gt lift, gt aircon, wah lao heaven ah.. But the room is qt small lah, i still thinking whether if i wna stay in hall. Anw, her roomie wasn't in, so i sit at her table. oops. but one glance i can tell her roomie super rich ah.. fel aso rich laa.. haha. then fel started decorating a card for yuliang's crush. i spend most of my time staring at the photos of her roomie:P gosh, i cant seem to recognise which 1 is her leh.. Went JP with fel & we settle for mos burger. so saD LA, fel kip wanting to get rid of me ah, i say i willing to pei her wait, the she kip telling me to go hm. feelll so saaddd, ahahaha. too bad la, i'm nt bondy:P

after so much, i'm still pondering whether to go ntu or nus. lol, cant make up my mind leh, i need some persuasions pls. so gals, gime some suggestions. wahhh, cant wait to get into uni. i want meet new ppl. hahahah, i want meet new gals. the gals nw all super dao, gt new uni friends le then will dao u all de way, like strangers liddat. so sad rit. bt we muz be understanding, cuz their life do not revolve ard us only. summore they meet new guys, old guys i tink can give way le. gosh, i want to defer from ns then go schooling again. whee, ns really give us time to think what we really want in life.

nx yr jan 18 driving test. a mth more to go. i hope i pass. then i can drive to nus or ntu. wow, yushu with a car, doesnt that sound too good to be true? i wonder how many ppl are materialistic. its hard to find a super pretty gal that will tell you they are nt interested in rich guys. if i can find 1, i m blessed. as much as i convinced myself that true love still exists, i wonder how big a role does money play in a relationship?

I've asked fel what she misses in her uni life in her blog. she never give me a reply. or rather she gave 1 that i dun uds what she meant. what last time gt now dun haf.. lol!

xmas coming soon, i want gifts pls. hahaha, no1 will send me xmas cards de laa.. sianz.. its been long since i last recieve a festive card from a fren.

Year 2008 coming le, hooray, thats 1 year and 3 mths more to my ORD. yawnz, really waste of time sia. after that i'm going japan with noob! hahaha, anymore noobs coming? quick i wna jio more noobs.

Liverpool super owning now. dec 16 is the day cant miss. cuz pool going to own manutd. oh my. man utd going to lose. christano ronaldo going to be send off. Arsenal must win chelsea too. When will arsenal ever start losing? hopefully tml.

november blues

2007-11-16T16:35:00.000+08:00

ok tuition starting again. gt another lobang.. anw, i need to start earning back money again..

you know why? cuz i just bot myself a HP compaq labtop... lol. today.. $1899. was i too impulsive? i really dno, but ok la, at least i noe this is the last thing that i wna buy.

to have a own labtop felt gr8. esp you wun hav to see ppl faces. so right now, my hse gt mahjong, scv, a proper comp. shld be content alr. so now nx step i have to earn bak my money. esp my earlier objective to get at least a 5digit in my bankbook now seems so distant away.

been training v hard in gym. i hope to becum a totally diff yushu when i go nus in year 2009. i mean its no longer the weak boy u all have seen in the 19 years of my life. sometimes the environment really plays a big part in our growing up. i want to prove i can forget u once n for all. i want u to be regret for what u have done to me. i dno y i m like this. but u should also get a feel of the pain i have gone thru.

jay chou album act nt bad. but i hate the 1st song, cuz i tink its crap.

i may not be popular, but i noe i still haf some gd friends with me. i hope every1 change tgt with me.

i hope. i pray. to prorogue this yearn. the want to be beautiful. inside n outside of me.

November 16th friday. what a hectic day

Red Devils for this week =)

2007-11-02T08:35:00.000+08:00

Ok, i got to admit, Arsenal & Man Utd played better football than Liverpool. Although i support Liverpool, it dawns on me that there will be times when i felt totally frustrated watching the KOP played their preferred style of football, that is ssssssslllllllllloooooooowwww.

Hello, does it occur to you that i might fall asleep watching Liverpool play? Anyway this weekend match is 1 that cant be miss. Honestly, 2 teams with similar styles and players of such quality, it is no wonder that both teams are classed to be offensive.

But the plan for this week is for Man Utd to beat Arsenal.

Yes, you didn't read wrong, i really believe Man Utd can win in Emirates Stadium, if not a draw will be lucky for the gunners to escape. Maybe cuz of the money, but i still want manutd to halt Gunner's unbeaten run. Think 0f it, Man Utd 2-1 Arsenal, isn't that the best result for every1? I know Felicia won't agree, but defintely Hao Wen will agree. LOL.

I hope my efforts won't be wasted. I know it won't. If i ever get to succeed, i just have 1 regret.

Sorry my friend. I pray hard you won't blame me.

busy

2007-10-23T03:03:00.000+08:00

So many things have happened. I do not know where should i begin. But i can say i'm super busy at work for the past week or so. Major re-shuffling, tidying up of workplace by me etc.. It really feels good to have a clean environment to work in. Witness alot of things, some bad some good. Office politics, biasness, discriminations all are norm.

I must recount 1 incident. I dropped my handphone on the bus to CCk interchange 1 day to work. I only realised it after i boarded the MRT to novena. Its a shitty feeling that i cant get to do anything while on the 45mins long journey to work. Upon reaching my office, i tried calling my handphone. It rang but no1 answered. So i suspect that the bus captain had found it but did not return to the terminal office. My boss drove me to CCK interchange to do some 'investigations' in a police car. The staff there was quit hesitant in the 1st place to help us. They keep asking where are we from. So no choice, has to say frm police. So stupid right, fancy police losing handphone due to carelessness while consistantly reminding the public to be careful. Call it embarrassment. I reckon it. Luckily, or perhaps i was sibei lucky, we found out the bus that i sat earlier was returning soon after a trip to Geylang interchange and back. So we just eat our breakfast there while we waited for the bus to come. Once the bus arrived at the terminal, my boss immediately went up to retrieve my handphone. Thanks god it was back. if nt my contacts . . . Actually i cant say the driver(whom i know his name) was exactly honest for he did not return the phone immediately after he found it. To be exact, misappropriation of property carries a harsh sentence. But he also never take it(perhaps my handphone was super old model, thats y i really like using old nokia phone =), so its up to one own judgement how he perceived the whole matter.

Recently, or should i say yesterday, i made a huge decision. I don't want to blame hanyang anyway. Its myself, my own decision. I paid a hefty sum. But i realised that since i'm still young and free, i should give it a try. I mean yes i may lost 2k for now, but maybe there's a way out. Right now, i just pray hard that my parents would give me a good testimonial. With this good testimonial, i can easily get contacts. I have never really wish for anything in my life before. Maybe yes, but i know its not that impt actually. So now i offically WISH that for the rest of the road i'm going to take, i want it to be as SMOOTh as possible. I don't care about ranks right now nor what CC car. I want to learn PR skills and other stuff that may aid me in my future. Yes, many people have skeptism about this marketing plan. But why do people still achieved great in this field? There's must be a way out certainly? Honestly, i don't want to achieve big, i do not have dreams like hanyang, i just want to make use of my free time for this industry. I said i wanted taking business. Maybe i can get to learn some valuable lessons here since currently no unis allow me to go to their business schools. The people there are very friendly, all are willing to help, all can cope with work and stress, all can still do well. The environment is wonderful.

I'm not going to make any rash decision anymore. So right now my concern is to learn well, and earn back my cost price. Its really PART-TIME for me. Thats 1 thing different i set from hanyang. Of course, i'm truly impressed with hanyang mentality right now. I wish him all the best. Lets just say 'touchwood' if i fail to succeed, i have done filial piety to my parents for i wish them good health.

Ok shan't reveal anymore for the time being. Interested people can still msg me:)

I feel i'm growing up and i'm happy =D

But 1 thing about me, i still like gambling. Would it have make a difference to you if westham's bellamy scores in extra time to make it 3-1 over sunderland? No, you still think westham still win. But it does for my case. I really cannot believe it. I think heaven decides i'm not worthy of the money. I bought 3-goals, 2-1 exact score H-H for ht/ft. And i thought i was winning all 3 tickets. BUtttt, a goal makes a big difference. so now instead of winning $100 over, i now lose $24. LOL, i'm blessed indeed.

So right now, apart from work, tuitions, i have new committment. Lets hope i do well. cheers.

plasma tv

2007-10-09T05:57:00.000+08:00

Yea dad bought a Plasma TV for my 2nd floor study area. Quite small laa actually. 29inch. So means my digital cable must be transferred upstairs. It will be quite convenient to play mahjong and watch soccer at the same time. The reason why he is so 'nice' is becuz he want his downstairs TV to sing karaoke. Since every sats, i would 'book' the whole TV for watching EPL. Now what i lack is a computer at the study area to be my perfect hangout other than my room. And what exactly i have in mind is a HP Plasma Desktop, courteousy of DELL.

And Yuliang, i have good news for you! I GROW BIG LE. Statistics shown that over the past few weeks, my mass has increased satisfactorily to my delight. Before BPT, my weight is 55kg. After BPT, my weight is 59.5kg. And now my weight is 63.5kg. Cool right eh? My aim is to get to 70kg before end of this year:) Soon laa, lets go beach tgt okie? HAHAHA, i want to go sun tan. i miss the sun very much after ndp. I don't want to be so fair.

I'm striving hard for an excellence in body language. Alright! thats a pun in case you guys do not know. My boss says my face very guai lan( those kind of mischeivous type). KNN, my face is so sweet laa, look at me, i'm harmless. Cuddy when huggs. How can i possibly be guai lan rit?

Every1 in the world says the same old line to me. "Police very slack de". Do you know how much i suffer inside Police? I have the illness - the dread of not knowing what to do when i'm released from work at 6pm daily. Its so boring and boring life indeed makes you more stressed than ever. Because i know that i'm wasting my time and i got alot of things undone? I think i must really take leave 1 of these days, then go NUS visit Huixian. Familiarise myself with Engineering compound and see whether i like it nots. Because i still have the choice of going to NTU, courteousy of Shuyu.

Honestly, all the gals like keep complaining alot of tests, tutorials in uni. Damn, i miss all these stuff. Alright, i know if girls ever get to read this, they will bound to axe me and say to hell with you. You know giving tuitions make me want to go study. Seriously i miss surfing the net, shoving the shelves in library for references and notes for projects and assignments. A bigger miss came from the empty drawers and cabinets which i have managed to sort & clean. It lacks of papers to be fair. Though i just threw alot of my secondary school stuff to the bin. Sometimes i just regret nt filing my notes properly to be kept for future use. It is this that spur me to throw every single thing away. But i can expect uni stuff to be piling up when i re-start schooling again in year 2009. This time i learnt that better management is appreciated inorder to maximise usage.

I am a terribly lazy boy. I need to start cracking. I need to upgrade myself.

I need money to learn new things.

I need to work more to earn money.

I need the required fields/skills to start working.

And the cycle goes again. No money, no skills. No skills, no money.

So do any1 want to join me in learning new course? :)

WWE

2007-09-25T06:26:00.000+08:00

Recently, i've been quite obsessed with wrestling. With digital cable in the house, i caught up with my childhood all-time favourite entertainment once again. The only bad thing about starhub is that if you want to watch monthly special pay-per-view events like Unforgiven, Summerslam & Armagadeon etc, you have to sign up for Demand TV, which indirectly means you must pay more:S I was thinking if i become more affluent 1 of these days, i would gladly sign up for Demand TV which broadcasts good movies. Other than that, sports channel is still the best.

See laa fel, ask you come over to watch, you dun want..

I have a big dream. I want to have a good body. I go gyms almost all the weekdays, but i realise i just couldn't grow big. The superstar that fancies me in WWE is Batista. Look at his god-like body. Whoosh, that was certainly a head-turning physique. One that would allow people (Chio bu) to scream "Marry me!"

So, once you have this kind of body, you can get to flirt with gals like WWE Woman's Champion, Candice Michelle. (nice name btw :X plus hot bod and everything) Totally amazing!

Hahaha, but i think that is a fat hope. So i suppose this 2 years of NS life is suppose to help me to attain that level.

But i'm really very scared. I might end up the other way round. Please see what my fear is.

Alright thats all for now. Will update soon again:)

poly people

2007-09-07T00:28:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, its not that i want to say it, but i think SOME poly people i've came across are damn F***ed-up.

So what are they good at doing? ACT-SEH + ACT KNOW-IT-ALL, comeon laa, they are very proud of themselves once they achieve something i realised (cuz maybe they have never achieve big b4). Then they will go around bragging, ask you to follow their example, never bother to pause and think for other people.

1 word to describe, sTUPID.

Especially the people in my workplace right now, hate them to the core. RETARDS.

But i still get to know some good approachable ppl in my NS stint. People like haddad and kengkum. These are what i call the gems of the POLY majority.

1st driving lesson.

2007-08-26T07:39:00.000+08:00

whoo, i just have my FIRST eva driving lesson. the feeling is so totally different laa. OMG, its like scary. maybe becuz i'm learning manual.

My leg felt so cramp after the 100mins of driving. lol. especially the left leg. cuz im not used to the clutch pedal. arghh..

i lost count how many times the engine stalled on me. but the feeling is so scary. cuz the car move front n back repeatedly. like hit sth liddat. omg. and the reason y it stalled is becuz i release the clutch pedal too fast/over-release. argh, move off n slow down so ma fan.. change gear n such, i hope i will be used to it after tml lesson.

so wad i did today is to learn how to go round bends normally, especially the hand movements so i wun entangle myself. oh no i think i nvr really use my side mirror leh. how ah? okok muz get it in2 my head, from tml onwards, i hope i can be pro-er.

this weekend is the 1st time i can stay at home to watch soc in my own hse n my own TV. so much for e hassle of going some1 hse to stayover. pls, let me win matches tonight.

i bet $80 altogether for 2nite matches. wish me luck. i'm sorry yuliang, ns is so boring till i haf to blog abt sth i like, n thats winning $$$ in soccer. and yes felicia, arsenal my lucky team this season. do you want the henry's pic? i can send you. haha

My very own predictions n my bets:

Sunderland 0-2 Liverpool
West Ham 1-2 Wigan + Total Goals : 3
Bolton 1-2 Reading + Total Goals : 3
Arsenal 2-1 Man City
Chelsea 1-1 Portsmouth
Derby 1-3 Birmingham + Total Goals : 4 + HT/FT : A-A
Aston Villa 2-1 Fulham + Total Goals : 3
Everton 1-1 Blackburn +Total Goals : 2
Liaoning Guanyuan FC 1-1 Albirex Niigata FC + Total Goals : 2

ohh yaa, my car number today is 69.

i hope it doesn't suddenly play a horny music like e transformer's car.

2007-08-24T07:29:00.000+08:00

Lol, if he still in Arsenal, I think fel will love him laa..

so funny now, the NSF from OPS dept arguing about their fav teams. And this pic is shown:)

Tutor's responsibility

2007-08-23T07:09:00.000+08:00

I think a tutor main responsibility is to ensure that you teach the tutee well. Not just well, but the extra effort to impart all the relevant knowledge and skills to him/her. A child's future is carved by parents and shaped by teachers. As a tuition teacher, i do have the responsilbilty to ensure i tried my best and not just teach merely for that $25/hr. That is so shallow part of thinking i guess. When i say i have calculated my finance, i took it for granted that my tutee's parents will let me continue the service the following year. So, i don't think it would be a surprise that they will disengage my service if i failed to match up to their expectations. Especially when the parents are very nice to me, the more i will feel guilty.

Teaching is not so simple afterall. There are many types of tutors. I guess i'm the 1 who yet to go the extra mile. oh bless benedict, angeline and esther to do well for their final year exams please.

I guess i just need another chance. And another student to prove my will.

chelsea stinks

2007-08-21T02:45:00.000+08:00

LOL. I wonder why manutd fans are so quiet nowadays. That 0-1 loss last night was humiliating. Man City may have won 3 matches, 100% record, but they are not a team capable for glory in Europe. That goal was lucky i suppose. But at least Richards did a fabulous job of defending Tevez. But its like Man City looks ready to collapse under the continuous pressure from Man Utd, who was without stars Rooney n Ronaldo.

So much for that, CHELSEA you stinks. The referee stinks the most. That was not a PENALTY to begin with. bleh. But alright laa, Chelsea still cant beat Liverpool in terms of quality. This week i finally got 2 out of 10 matches Right. I'm so glad Arsenal goalkeeper made that mistake. Love ya. And i'm so touched Boro won Fulham 2-1 right in the end. Both matches have 1 similarity. The goalkeepers both make stupid errors that gifted the goal. I guess this is really called lucky for me.

Just called Starhub for advice on installation of digital cable. So i'm going to pay all the bills myself. Nvm, its for EPL so its worth it. So now i can invite my friends to my house to watch n stayover le. Maybe i get a mahjong set + table soon. haha.

GO GO LIVERPOOL
BYE BYE MAN UTD
SCREW OFF CHELSEA
GIVE ME MORE $$$ ARSENAL

Wednesday Highlights!

2007-08-15T09:11:00.000+08:00

First up, 2 newly-promoted teams, Birmingham & Sunderland are going to hit with a big bang! Honestly, both teams have flair, they do not lack shot on goals in their previous matches and they can indeed be the next Reading. But a point to ponder is that during their last 2 meetings in the division, Sunderland has only managed a point from a possible 6. Results like 0-0, 1-0 are not going to prove anything now. This is Barclays Premiership, so i would expect a 4goal thriller with a score line 2-2($13.00). Next, Fulham V Bolton is another difficult match for this week. Exactly which team is capable of overcoming an embarrassing loss from the 1st league match last weekend? No1 really knows the answer, so bookmakers place Fulham to be the advantage cuz they're comfortably at home. However, Bolton is not a team to be trifled with. Even when big SAM Daddy is out, Bolton can still be 1 of the contenders for UEFA spot. I reckon Kevin Nolan is going to score a fantastic goal to put them back in their winning ways. Sorry Fulham, i think you guys will lose 1-2($9.00). Third up, its Man City vrs Derby. Derby has really surprised me with the 2-2 scoreline against Portsmouth. I also don't know why, but i'm going to think Manchester City is bound to thump Derby 3-1($8.50) in this match. Derby is not going to get lucky again for a draw, or even a win in such a small probability against Man City's current form. For this season, i honestly insists that lady luck will be blessing Man Utd's neighbour. So let's wait and see. The next match is going to cause an uproar. Because its Portsmouth Vrs Manutd:) Even my own sister, an ardent Reds supporter has asked me to buy MAn Utd to lose. With Wayne Rooney sidelined, i wondered who will actually play for Man Utd. Its true a good team will still win despite long injury list. But Portsmouth is going to cause another upset to the defending champion by ensuring history to repeat itself. Remember last season? So this time its going to get bitter. Portsmouth 2-1 ManUtd ($15.00). I dun really know how to put it. Ever since Reading draw 0-0 with Man Utd, i have been slightly cautious with the match involving Reading. 1 thing for sure, if Reading can contain Man Utd, why they can't contain the likes of Malouda, Pizarro? So this time its going to be another boring draw with plenty of miss chances. 0-0($8.50) i would say. Even the odds-makers seem to agree with me as can see from the odds:) Now for the last EPL match, Wigan V Middlesbrough. Both teams faced a 1-2 defeat last match, but i can tell you that Boro really play better than Blackburn although the latter win. Wigan won't allow the visitors to steal the show so easily without a consolation goal. So i believe the Wigan is going to lose 1-2 against Middlesbrough ($9.00). The season is still early. PRedictions might go haywired but i'm certain it can't go tooo wrong. So have fun in this weekdays' matches:)

For Toulouse Vrs Liverpool, its going to be a tricky match. Many people should have realised that Toulouse has become a dark horse after beating defending champions Lyon 1-0 in the French League. Much as that will affect how i see things, i'm not going to let down my guards that Liverpool is going to storm to a 0-3 ($15.00)away. But then as a precaution factor, total goals 3 will be nice ($3.90) for any scorelines like 2-1:)

For Sparta Prague Vrs Arsenal, i believe that the Russian Champ is not for nothing at home. So be extra careful that this time round, nothing can save the Gunners from a narrow defeat. So the scoreline i expect will be 2-1($17.00) to Sparta. I'm not being biased but history has proven that Arsenal tends to lose a goal abroad. This time they face the Russian Giants, not the Dutch nor Italians. Buy yourself 3 goals ($3.70) incase the scoreline turn in favour for Arsenal.

new job!

2007-08-15T02:25:00.000+08:00

Ok currently have a new source for income. Under Prudential, so i also have a mentor myself. This is to keep my target in place. Anyway, alot of people think its all about insurance. NO. What i'm promoting is long-term saving plan which i really encouraged people of my age to start now. There is no cost incurred while signing up, and you get to reap the benefits in the end, not me. How is it different from the bank is that for Prudential, they provide at least 4% interest as compared to bank that never even reach 1%. However you must know that this saving plan that i'm introducing doesn't allow you to withdraw until ur plan officially matures(maturity period is you decide 4 urself at the start b4 the contract). You can still withdraw, but they call it *surrender money*, means u will lose some of your money, afterall, you are the 1 that break the bond. This plan is called PRUSAVE, its to let u save for your future. So why withdraw when you can get back much more when ur plan matures? I wouldn't advise you getting PRUCASH(a plan that allows cashback of 500bucks after end of 2 years for 1 year each) because in the end what you get will be much more lower compared to PruSave. Would like to highlight that our Objective is to Save, so in my own perspective, or would i say many others more, PruSave will be much better a plan than PruCash. Think about it:)

Of cuz there is still the investment policies. Yes, indeed the interest is much more. I'm absoultely sure of that PROVIDED the economy is doing great. But you know the otherwise right? Shan't elaborate on that. 1 Thing about investment is that you throw in most of your eggs in2 1 basket means thousands being poured inside at 1 time. For saving plan, you save less than $100/mth and eventually you still will get back more only for a longer period of time. So its still better to be practical but not to be greedy. Low risk doesn't mean no risk. Yes, there are lotsa investment firms right now, but are you sure any1 of them is very stable? Prudential is currently ranked 8 which i believe in US$ earnt/year globally. Its still logically right to say that segregating your wealth is still much safer than pouring it into 1 firm. So trust me dudes, START SAVING NOW:) Do gime a call or drop me a message if you want to know more.

My target audience for this project would be Uni Undergrates/NSFs and especially for people who want to be independant and far-sighted. This is super useful for people that don't come from a rich family and for people who want to start planning for their retirement funds. Ok, please don't start saying "wah, siao ah, think so far 4 what. i haven work and you alr plan for retirement" Actually its true laa. Why think so far. You must be those rich bastards who think ur parents will leave you a mountain of gold for u till you die or those over-confident arse that think you cfm earn alot of $$$ next time after uni. So stop giving excuses not to save now. Or is it really that hard to save like $70 a mth? =S

Ok for me myself, i've got 1 PRUSAVE policy myself. My maturity date is 35years later. Just nice cuz you get to withdraw your CPF amount in 1 lump sum too:) So right now, i'm putting in like $70 every mth, with interest at 5.2%. So after 35 years, the guaranteed sum i will get is 30k. With 49k already in the plan cuz of the $70/mth i put in with interest accumulated, so total i can take back $79k. It may seems little but with that is enough to last you for quite a long long time. Of course you can earn more if you put in more laa. Thats common sense.

Exclusive edition for wednesday matches coming right after Lunch.

Analysis

2007-08-14T02:50:00.000+08:00

Ok, so how you find my performance as a tipster?

So this week in 10matches, i won only 1, thanks to Arsenal. What was surprising to me would be Man Utd drawing 0 - 0 Reading. It seems Reading has finally read into Ferguson's mind, but still unable to hit the most vulnerable spot for the upset. To think that Man Utd has so many attack options. which statistics from the data shown from yesterday's match, managed 0 goals out of the 25shots while disillusioned Reading only has 3shots. This match will be the "match of the week" for Singapore Pools, cuz i believe alot of people lost money for that. I was right for the Arsenal match though. Partially right for Chelsea match, though i never had thought that they will score 2 goals each in the 1st half. But i knew Chelsea would win by a goal. This week lost $10, but it wasn't as bad losing $50 had Arsenal not won.

Next match is Tottenham V Everton. I'm going to give my own analysis. Berbatov has been disappointing in the match against the CATs, being subbed out in the early 60mins. But this time remember its going to be at White Hart Lane. Everton's top striker, Andrew Johnson has also not been inside the goal list. I'm sure both strikers have much to do for tomorrow match. Although Spurs has home-ground advantage, do note that Everton is coming in with a win against Wigan, so i will expect both of them to end up in a brawly-draw. namely 1-1. Other draw results are still applicable but my hunch will be 1-1 ($6.50). For HT-FT tix, based on my prediction, i will expect the visitor to nick a goal 1st before cancelling out by goal from the home side in the 2nd half. So, A-D ($15) looks good for any risk-takers.

Will be back tomorrow for 6 more matches:)

Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Birmingham v Sunderland (St Andrews Stadium)
Fulham v Bolton (Craven Cottage)
Man City v Derby (City of Manchester Stadium)
Portsmouth v Man Utd (Fratton Park)
Reading v Chelsea (Madejski Stadium)
Wigan v Middlesbrough (The JJB Stadium)

And also 2 Uefa Champ matches
Toulouse v Liverpool
Sparta Prague v Arsenal

winning start

2007-08-13T12:30:00.000+08:00

Alright, thats Villa's goalie above. Gerrard curled the free-kick into the net. Impressive? i would say that is ultra-terrific:) Went paradiz watched quite a few of the epl matches ytd, lost all bets yesterday. I think it was okay. Was quite frustrated cuz my predictions were almost there. Nevertheless, we still have 3matches tonight:)

My predictions: () refers to actual score

Aston Villa 0-2 Liverpool (1-2)
Everton 2-0 Wigan (2-1)
Bolton 1-2 Newcastle (1-3)
West Ham 1-2 Manchester City (0-2)
Derby 0-1 Portsmouth (2-2)
Middlesbrough 0-2 Blackburn (1-2)
Sunderland 1-2 Tottenham (1-0)

As you can see, only 2 matches were slightly off. But then that reminds me that for next season i have to buy upset for the 1st match to be played. My buddy, kengkum was sibei suay. Cuz got live betting up to 80mins. So at 79mins, he placed 50bucks for the match to end in a draw. Then suay-suay Michael Chopra scored in the last-min of the injury time to give the CATS an emphatic win over the spurs. So true is the phrase football is 90mins. Hence $35 is gone but its okay cuz the s-league match alr compensated for this, so i'm okay. We will see how the top3 gunners in the league do tonight.

For your information, i bought all 3 to win 2-1 respectively. So all the best to the lousiest tipster on blogspot. hahaha. My reason is simple. All big teams tend to struggle in the 1st match against under-performed teams or newly-promoted teams. Oh btw, 2 of the 3 newly-promoted teams have not lost yet. Chelsea has its own defensive problems to worry about. I'm sure Birmingham is able to score a goal under Steve Bruce's coaching. But oh well, even if chelsea was to concede a goal, i'm sure they can pull back 1, or edged out an win. Isn't that been always the case? So 2-1 is my choice (: Many people have loved fulham since the last season. They are still the team helping Singapore Pools to lose money. A point to note nevertheless, Fulham can still create the unexpected. So just watched out for this team. Therfore, i'm sure they will try their best to deny Arsenal a clean sheet. Given Van PErsie's superb performance in the pre-season frendlies, i'm sure he will be the saviour for Arsenal tonight. Draw-Home is a good bargain for this match. So 2-1 is my choice. Look at Reading and Manutd. For the past meetings, Reading obviously has not read into Ferguson's mind. So i'm expecting Reading to under-read again. And if you have noticed last season for the matches involving Reading, it has always been high-scoring game. Well, i'm not too sure about this 1 though, since Steve Sidwell has left for chelsea, and playmaker Lita is injured. So 3 goals will be a wise choice for the 2 teams tonight. For that i believe Man Utd will win 2-1.

Alright, i will be back with more analysis for the next match Tottenham v Everton on Monday:)

So thats the bit for football fanatics. Now, must move on to blogging about myself. Today just came back from Sengkang, KK's house. Anyway, the journey back was long. I managed to utilise all 4 different trains. Took Lrt from Fernvale to Sengkang, then NEL from Sengkang to Outram PArk, then Green-line from Outram park to JUrong East, then Jurong East to Bukit Batok. So the fare is $2.41. Its like travelling the whole width of singapore laa. Anyway, i wan to say that KK is actually a super-nice guy. So for my dear squadmates reading my blog, i would like to share this with you. I think its the 1st time i eva talk to him for so much since the day we are in the same squad. Ok, he may not have the brains or looks, but the fact that his character is good & strong make me see wonders in him. He really take care of me laa, like to the extent of treating me supper at bugis and buying me water during the soccer match at paradiz. What is even more impressive is that i've learnt that he is super independant. Cuz through the conversations, i realised that he really know how to manage his income and expenditure and how he has signed up so many policies with Prudential for his future. And he is taking care of his transport(i refer to his bike) himself. He kept all the records of expenditure and savings in a book, that was what i think i should do for myself. I rarely see people like him planning so much for the future as well as managing one's income so expertly like him. Ok we did try our best to get xtra pay through "you know" other means. And i just learnt that he has quite a few tasks. Shan't say here cuz its quite sensitive while in NS. He told me he started working in sec2 in macdonald. I really admire hard-working people. People that really earn and spend their own money. I despise people that has rich relatives/parents that always give in to them on what they want. This really pisses me off as in why the world is so unfair.

Then you all will be complaining why i'm here acting godly when my parents are also rich. For today's entry maybe i will share more with you about myself. All the handphones/bills are never been bought/paid by my parents before JC period since young. My 1st phone was an Nokia 8310 given to me by my eldest sis. Subsequently she paid for my bills and also gave me her old phones. But to me its new phone. So i'm not that kind who is really into gadgets. A phone to me only serves to sms and call. If you have ever think my parents have ever bot me a phone in my entire 19years of life, you are damn wrong. They have never bought me anything expensive before. ONli playstation during my p-sch days cuz i get top in level for maths for 3 continuous years i believe. Other than that, if i ask for any technological tools like Ipod, xbox, gameboy, Hi-Fi set, new comp, they will NEVER agree. All the funs like ipod, nintendo DS are from my own savings. My parents have never brought me overseas before other than malaysia. They REFUSE to spend money on us and their excuse is their they cant put down their jobs. All these while you all been saying been to here and there, i'm sure none of the trips you have ever used your own savings. Only people like my Twin shuyu whom i believed to done otherwise is some1 whom i respect. So right now i'm entirely looking forward to the JApan trip with yuliang and shuyu after my ORD. And i believe i have to fork out my NS pay for this hefty sum. There is no way my dad going to sponsor me my holidays. So do you think i'm still that sort of rich brat like you all? Nah, i may have rich parents but i'm not rich. I have to learnt the hard-way to manage my finance wisely. Why would i bother wasting my time after work everyday for tuitions? I can just go home, have a good rest and watch Felicia Chin in her 9pm show right? Why do i keep looking for more lobangs in newspaper/net whenever i get the chance to rest? Why do you think i'm so money-minded and selfish when i refuse to treat you all for lunch/dnr? Sometimes in lives, we have to learn the hardway. i'm glad my parents are well-to-do, that means i do not have extra burden as the only son. But i do have extra burden, thinking of how to finance my uni expenses in 2 years time. Maybe that explains why i'm so money-minded nowadays. Ok jas, here's your answer. I'm scared. Afraid to be a failure. I just dun want to be a useless guy. Honestly, i believe that a guy without money/savings is as gooD as a goner.

After such vivid explanations above, i have illustrated a completely new image to you. But that doesn't mean i really save to that extent of neglecting myself. Like what jasmine had said, we should spend what we should, and save what we should. I still spend alot on food and movies outside on weekends. So there's no "no-life" blogger here:) Just a reminder to myself. My target for savings in my own Bank is 10k by the end of this year. and 25k before i ORD. This is my own goals. You don't have to give any comments.

So yesterday i also did sign up PRu-Save with KK and his mentor. There's 2 reasons why i want to sign up, though it means i'm not going to see the money until the plan matures. 1) I'm saving for the future till 55 years. Same as the time when i can take out my CPF. 2) I want to help KK earn. Honestly being in the same boats in which we must earn ourselves, it makes me feel like helping him. Maybe your definition of true friends does not encompass this, but i think he deserves my help. If you have known me better, i treat my friends better than myself i think. This is the reason, but i'm sorry to the female counterpart in prudential who approached me 4 mths earlier, why i choose my friend to help. Maybe its silly, but i think that being true to friends is what we should inculcate. Anyway the sum guaranteed is around 30k with interest 5.2%, so i should say its not bad:) At least i know that maybe next time when i'm old and lonely(no girl wants me), i still can survive myself. I really wonder how many people at my age is doing so much for his future without the aid from parents. It just boils down to me that if one learns to manage financially well, its alr 1 step towards success.

Its feels good to start planning now. At least if my parents ditched me after uni, i still can be smiling happily.

Btw, after knowing my reluctance to spend money, and you did receive something valuable from me, you should noe how much i treasure you. I may not be the right person, but i swear i did put in efforts. Oh well, get this into your head, i'm financially stable, neither rich nor poor.

driving

2007-08-07T09:43:00.000+08:00

Alamak, how come so many people pass driving tests le? I think the gals' lives very good laa, no need go NS, can work and save money for Great Singapore Sale, got time to learn driving etc. Then now go university. And i'm stuck in here, collating data on the number of crimes occured during Great Singapore Sale.

That time celeste pass driving test, she smsed me at night to tell me she got her license le.
Now, i read Xiaoting's blog, she also passed her test le.
On sunday i heard from michelle, Dency also got her license le. So how many more girls i'm going to hear? I can tell you where i'm at right now. My 1st practical training is on the 9/9/07. Don't ask me why. Because BBDC has so many people and all kiasu people take all the slots for august + september le. So now in the meantime, i'm learning my damn advanced theory test. And my basic theory test is only this saturday. So you can see, i'm still lagging far behind. Ok , so i'm going to be kiasu right now, and i'm going to book alot of slots for practical trainings. Which reminds me i have to top up my account after work today so i can book more slots. Supposedly learning manual is more difficult cuz it requires time to be used to changing gears & clutching unlike auto cars. I really hope i can pass my traffic police test in december cuz my parents have already promised me a car once i pass my test for the 1st time. October is going to be very busy for me because i have alot of driving lessons going on.

From today onwards, i'm going to post some observations made by me while going to work etc. Ok so today i was in a rush cuz i'm late for my work. So i took the bus from my home to CCK interchange. Between this CCK interchange to the MRT line, there is this covered walk-way for commuters to walk through. So once i alighted at the terminal, there was this 1 whole line of pink-topped people, stationed along the walk-way asking for donations. What i find it funny is that if you are a logical person, and if you really have no intentions to donate, then after waving off the 1st person that approached you, you will not bother donating to the 2nd or 3rd person right? So basically what happened to me was that the 4th,5th,6th person keep signalling to me for donation right after i have schemingly avoided the 1st person. So what i'm trying to put across is that they should station themselves at some other places mah. Crowding together at 1 place doesn't seem to help you get more donations wat. Unless you tell me that i'm the kind of bastard that only donate to pretty girls laa. Then if thats the case, i'm truly sorry.

I think that if 'guys only donate to chio bus while gals onli donate to cute guys' works, then mite as well ask all the models in singapore to help the charitable organisations. Correct? Oh mann, i really can't imagine the new generation asking bikini-clad girls to petrol the streets for donations. Yea, that is new idea. maybe some1 thought about it before. But certainly it hasn't been put into practise. Obviously which pretty girl in the right hell of their mind would waste their day standing down there saying "Lai2, uncle, juan1 qian2 ah". What about Mr-Muscle flexing their mousey, intimidating young gals to donate? Cool ah.

But then today why i refuse to donate its partially because i'm in a rush and more of my unwillingness to donate my $1 coin. I have no 2o-cent nor 10-cent coins in my pocket. Then i bet you guys will ask my how come i willing to donate 10bucks to Singapore pools and not 1buck to charity? Then my immediate reply will be you bet 10bucks, maybe can get back more money. you donate $1 coin like got no returns. Haha ok la, i also duno why im so selfish, but today's lesson has taught me that we must bring more 20cent coins to work next time. So maybe next encounter with people helping charity, i can also play a part.

Like what the chinese always rumble, you do good deeds will have good returns. So please spare a 20cent coin for the tin next time.

Sleepyz.

2007-08-06T15:02:00.000+08:00

Had only 2hours of sleep last night. because i stayed overnight at Yan's house to watch 3 matches of soccer. I think all matches damn exciting. maybe because i bought (as usual gamble) some slips. ok i know alot of people going to kao bei me and say why i keep gambling. Don't ask me why laa. my only usable excuse is that i can earn more money this way. NS pay is seriously miserable. Then here comes the next question. "You think you can win everytime meh?" True laa, instead of earning i may end up on the losing end. aiya gambling is liddat 1 laa, either WIN or LOSE. oh well, it had became my super bad-habit. But don't worry i will never *over do-it*.

Blah blah blah, thats what gamblers always say.

At least 1 thing i know, i dun smoke nor drink. For that i'm still a good guy. haha.

But yesterday i won quite a bit so i'm happy. The Porto v Shanghai match was killing me. The way the chinese team played, it seem as if they will end up with 10 eggs in their net. But at least they hang on. Yeah, thats the spirit. so thank you chinese team for bringing me luck. haha. enough about betting soccer. Yesterday morning at Jurong West market, the coffee-shop attendant told my parents that "we CANNOT play soccerbets, girls and other illegal activities."

But we can play BIG SWEEP. wtf. if they ever get the chance to learn statistics, they would have realise the chance of your number matching the number drawn is as good as you finding a pretty, good-hearted, house-wife material and 1 that doesn't go for your money galfriend. hahaha is that a BAD analysis? Please dun come n kill me gir=P

So right now, i'm feeling so sleepy. Choiceless, i started blogging now at 3:30pm so that i won't fall asleep at my desktop. Later still got tuition. I wonder how i'm going to tahan.

Anyway, i'm so relieved this thurs is going to be the final NDP. 4 months of torture is finally over. Right on top is the picture taken by shuyu. Try to see me:) Please support me by watching the parade on TV at your home this coming thursday.

Fernando Torres

2007-07-31T12:16:00.000+08:00

So can anyone tell me will he succeed in this coming English Premier League? i'm super upset when he cannot convert goals against portsmouth at the Asian Cup final. Was watching at paradiz centre. Bought draw-away, thought got super good chance to win. In the end, those who were there for live-betting won lots for buying draw and no goals scored. bleh. Was even flabbergasted that he miss penalty together with benayou (a weird-looking guy) ok no grudges but he really looks werid.

Today my boss never come, on urgent leave. can more of 'this day' come? Its really no stress laa. i don't slack much cuz i'm collating data on Returns from divisions. Anyway, life has been pretty uninteresting 4 me. know why. everyday its about admin work + night driving lessons or tuitions. But i guess this is just the beginning. I think i will sign up for some activities at community clubs during november n december after my driving course and also that is the tuition off-peak period to upgrade myself. Went to gym yesterday. Facilities were up to my expectations. so now my arms are rather cramp and stiff.

This year totally has no luck in gambling. I really bet the minimum. i Swear. But still keep losing. ok i shan't say keep losing. Should say 'turn of tide soon'

Revival of blog:)

2007-07-29T16:07:00.000+08:00

Wow, its been so long since i last blogged.. the page could nt even be view for goodness sake laa.. well i've changed the template to much simpler 1.. no more warcraft, onli reminds me of dota and how it screw up my studies..

So its time to blog again. got alot of things to update, but i guess i will write some today cuz i finally kept myself at home to play my Nintendo DS and to finish my harry potter book after a week le:( blog song is 1 of my favs.. chinese singer but its really is superb. many will agree with me..

5mths into NS police le. cant write alot of stuff here cuz of OSA. but then i guess for me its really slack. my posting is staff assistant at New Phoniex Park, Police Headquarters. its as good as doing admin job outside. the onli difference is that i'm onli earning half of the usual pay in ns. Seriously 1 week into this new job really set me thinking. i was scolded by my immediate supervisor daily. i always thought i can blend into new environment without worries but now it has since been a problem of my character. i even told jasmine about this matter. i think she was shocked to see me so "heavy" in my mood. LEt me give 1 example. ok so wednesday supposed to cover duties for my fellow colleague from 126th intake and my senior whom i'm taking over. so 1 of the job of the former was to manage the rental of 3 police saloons for operations dept. so during the day of their absence came about this call from radio dept who wanted to book a car. so i told him the 3 have been booked. and he asked for the reasons. and for 1 of the vehicle, i said sth like 'he nvr write down the reason leh'. and right after the fone was put down i was scolded very long for backstabbing my friend. because i implied that he din do his job and it also reflects that the supervisor nvr do his job and gives an overall bad impression of my division. sometimes its really the choice of words that bother me. cuz i really have no ill-intentions to defame or hurt any1. its just maybe in panicky situations will i be so frank to say the truth and nail my friends right in their back. so this week is the worst week in my NS life after so long. really i swear i din mean it. its always the case i'm pushing the blame to others as accused. so now it makes me a selfish bastard i guess.

So tell me what you guys will tell the pal on phone if you were in my situation. being new to the job for 3 days ONLY with no experience. who would have been so direct to say the same thing as me? pls tag in the new tagboard. i need to know if i'm really at fault. lol simultaneously advertising my new tagboard i guess.

ok i shall update again in office if i have the time.

screwed

2007-03-03T12:40:00.000+08:00

ok my results flopped. yea dad is angry. nth i can do.

DOUBLE BLOW!

i say i dun want get double blow. it really come. suay laa.

lol love calculator. zhun bo? 59% ahh no wonder...